Sufferer Hey Everyone!

[Be Braver]

Hello Everyone!

So I'm not sure where to start really. I have had PTSD diagnosed for about 2 years now. It is from a childhood trauma that my mind shut out until I was about 19. I joined the forum because I now have really strong self-controlling issues that I need help overcoming. They have manifested themselves into an eating disorder, and other unhealthy ways that help me feel in control of my own body and being. So thats really all I can think of saying for now. Let me know if I can help any of you in any way, or if there is something else you would like to know about me.

 

[Chava]

Welcome.

I relate to the eating disorder, body issues (response primarily to early complex/multiple traumas)...initially a control thing then just total shutdown and numbness everywhere (no hunger cues, nothing). Are yo working with a therapist for e.d. or trauma? Hope the forum is helpful.

 

[WillyKat]

I too had childhood trauma that remained buried until I was 21. It's called dissociative amnesia.
Feel free to help out as you wish. Your perspective is important to the rest of us.

Welcome to the Forum!

 

[shrinkingviolet]

Hello there. I can relate to control issues big time relating to childhood and young adult trauma. Sharing is so important. You will find no judgements here , just encouraging words and great perspective.

 

[Glara]

Welcome @bebraver. The ptsd sufferer in my life suffers from childhood trauma as well. He tells me he's very damaged and I see some of what you described in him. It's hard for me to say much more right now. I'm in very bad place as a result of it all, but there is a lot of support on here most of the time. It's really the only place I can find people that understand. I hope you find some help here,but I also hope you have a good therapist.

 

[Be Braver]

lAre yo working with a therapist for e.d. or trauma? Hope the forum is helpful.

I am working on mostly ED stuff with my therapist. We discussed working on my PTSD related stuff, but she says we can do that when I am ready. Thanks for the welcomes everyone! <3

 

[anthony]

Welcome to the forum @bebraver.

 

[Nam]

Hi @bebraver . I'm another with "forgotten" memories of abuse until I was in my mid twenties. Welcome to the forum.

 

[asldjfasldjf]

Hi @bebraver, welcome :) I actually wanted to ask you and @Nam @WillyKat how you recovered your memories. I'm 21 and recently realized that I was sexually abused by piecing together some clues from my past and by going through the Post-Incest Checklist. However, based on my history, the abuse I experienced occurred before/around the age 2, and I have little memory of it. How did you remember/what made you remember your trauma so many years later?

 

[intothelight]

Welcome and I hope you find the time spent here helpful.

 

[Be Braver]

@shero22 I actually had a dream about what happened and then reflected on my behavior and formed a connection. I also asked my mom for which she confirmed that what had happened in my dream was true.