Hi, Currently Deployed In Iraq

[willing]

Mccrea,
First thank you for your service. We wish you well. And know that there is help. There is! You will be amazed. Keep trying and something will break. Many people when confronted with the idea that a friend or loved one is in a situation that we are powerless over is plaquing someone we love is enough to shut us down. At least that is how I have done things when people are troubled around me. I can only emotionally take so much. Love is love. Once it's there it doesn't disappear. Hang onto the love and keep reaching out.
Thoughts and prayers for you,
Patty

 

[Burn]

Hey, McCrea

I don't agree with the cause of your war, but i respect people like you, that are willing to fight for what they hold dear, or just do what they think they have to do. I wish that you get better and learn to cope with the trauma. I think that your reaction, but also the reaction of you spouse are quite normal ... still the trick seems to make the best out of it and i guess your spouse will understand your feelings, since the one she wants back is her husband.

Good luck, soldier.

 

[mouse]

19D
First God Bless you and your brothers and sisters over there, keeping the peace and fighting the war, I wish you all home safe and sound, back to the real world and to leave your stresses over there. Realisticaly it will be here that you dump your stresses Know that we all care about you and pray for you and your comrades talk about , deal with , dont bottle it up get rid of it trust me on that one. and keep your self safe so you can come home.

 

[porkyrees]

Best of luck mate and as we used to say keep your F...ing head down.From an aussie.Porky Rees

 

[map9]

Welcome and thanks!

Dear Mc, It's wonderful that you have found this forum. Take care out there and I wish you much love and I honor you for your sacrifice to us here at home. Bless you in a million ways. I'm glad you can get internet access and post here on this forum. There is so much great information that can help you. Love, map9

 

[RNning]

Hey McCrea, I can't imagine what you see and deal with while you are there, but rest assured we are here to help when you log in here. Remember to breath, when time and opportunity permit - and seek medical assistance asap. Take care, be safe.

 

[moki]

how cool that you are writing...

Hi Mccrea
Very cool that you found this forum at this time...I honor and admire you for your service. Keep hanging in there, and like everyone else has said, get online and to this forum as much as you can...

 

[WarHippy1%]

Welcome to the forum, Bro. I see somebody already advised you to talk to somebody professional, but let me stress that. The military is big on the concept of, "We're men, we can take it", and then they send our kids into battle with no idea what to do if something like you experienced, happens. The quicker you get someone professional to talk it out with (debrief), the less the effects are gonna be on you. They didn't know that during Vietnam, I held one of my close friends in my arms as the life drained out of him from a land mine. And then I came home and came down with hepatitis from the vietnamese food, and got put into a VA hospital in isolation for 30 days with nobody to talk it out with. You don't want to live life like I have, so please get help.
I have to assume that your wife is as young as you. Both of you are too young to have to deal with what you've experienced. You can't change your end of it, but you could very easily cause her to run by insisting she hear what happened. She probably needs to talk to a professional also, to be able to deal your PTSD symptoms. Maybe sometime in the future she'll be ready to talk with you about it. Be thankful for this forum, I went 20 years undiagnosed, wondering why I didn't fit in. Thank you for serving our country, here's a quote that may comfort you, "For those who fought for it, Freedom has a flavor the protected will never know" (anonymous)
WarHippy1%
1st Cavalry Division (AIRMOBILE)
The First Team
Vietnam '69, '70, '71

 

[GRUNT11B]

Somalia and Bosnia

Hello Mccrea,
When I was originally diagnosed with PTSD I didn't want to believe it. I was similar to what some of the other members have said, "Be a Man," but believe me, a few years later and a lot of meds and inpatient therapys, that attitude didn't work with me. I had similar problems with my wife as well. We met a married in Germany and I think she had trouble getting used to the idea that I wasn't what she married.
All in all it comes down to healing for yourself as in the end there are only yourself and other people with PTSD that can relate to you. At least thats been my experience. I love my wife but she ca't help me. So I have to help me so our relationship will hold together.
Please come back from the sandbox and immediately get help and don't wait years like I did or 30 years like the Vietnam vets did. You must search out the system because it won't come looking for you.

Bro in arms