Hi Looking For More Support

[Leiaza]

Hi, my name is Stephanie I'm 26 years old and have PTSD. I've had it for as long as I can remember and have had a lot of bumps down the road for many years.

I have a loving Fiancé and my daughter has just turned 2. You could say I have a great life and people around me that support me but.. sadly it just doesn't seem enough for me. I am going to a therapist that specializes in PTSD and will be seeing him again this coming Thursday.

However, things seem to only get worse instead of better. I feel like a child maybe 90% of the time when I'm with my daughter I feel that she's more like the adult then I am. Don't get me wrong I take great care of my daughter I make sure that she is well taken care of. I have a better relationship with kids then I do with adults. I'm sure that's frowned upon some where.

I'm here really to get more support from people that have PTSD or don't whichever I just figure it would be nice to have someone exactly know how I feel instead of just saying they know.

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[Froggie]

Welcome to the forum Leiaza "Stephanie". I'm glad that you found this forum as it will help you through in between your T sessions. There are good articles which will help understand what you are dealing with, also, reading other people's stories or experiences will also bring about a new perception in life. You will notice that some need to vent, well, actually, everyone has a venting spree every once in a while or more. At least here, others understand. I too have an easier time with kids than adults, but with therapy and accepting the professional help, I'm getting better ... but still, I love the presence of kids as it also helps me realize that I have managed to change my destiny of a dysfunctional family that I came from. PS, my PTSD was caused by a criminal act ... I was just slightly screwed up in the head by my family ...

 

[BigBear]

Hi Leiaza,

The getting worse feeling while going to the T seems pretty common. Do not despair... The caterpillar can't see that it is turning into the butterfly. It only feels icky. The icky-ness is likely to be the changes at work.

Don't get me wrong. Sometimes things do go wrong. And there are people here that can help you see it if there's a problem.

In any case, welcome!

Bear

 

[AngelaMarie]

Welcome to the forum!!! I have found a lot of support and also a lot of good advice here.:)

 

[Leiaza]

Thank you I just wish there was some magic pill to make it all better for me but God doesn't wanna make it easy lol

 

[AngelaMarie]

(((Stephanie))) We have to live and learn. It helps us become stronger.:)

 

[Venator]

Hi Stephanie! Welcome. We have e-cookies and e-tea. ;)

I sympathize when you say there are people around you who love/support you but it doesn't feel like enough. I think it has to do with the lowered feelings of self-worth that come stock with PTSD in many people. In time T can help with this, I'm sure of it. Just don't give up like I did for a while.

 

[Kim]

Hi Stephanie,

I can relate to what you're saying. I too tend to get along better with younger people. I'm 52 and relate better to teenagers than I do people my own age.

Like you PTSD is my "normal". I was just diagnosed a few weeks ago but have had it for as long as I can remember. Of course back then they didn't know what they know now and I probably would have been institutionalized at the very least. A lot has changed over the years and they know a lot more today than they have at any other time. There are also many medication options available today that there weren't even just a few years ago.

I've been in and out of counseling 5 or 6 times over the past 20 some odd years but was always misdiagnosed. I know that from experience, unfortunately, things do tend to get worse before they get better so don't be alarmed by it. It just means you're on the right track and heading toward that light at the end of the tunnel. It does and will get better with time.

You've come to the right place if you're looking for understanding and support. You will find there's always someone who can relate to what you're going through. You are not alone.

 

[john1963]

Hi Stephanie: spent time on the site and read read read read read, then read read read read.

I too found this site and in the short time have found show much information, and the insight to see my self through others eyes reading.

They say a smart man learns by his own mistakes, but a wise man learns from others. Here is were we are not the other.

Count your blessings, and list your problems. When you have the problem in front of you. Then you can work with your Dr.

Before you are any good to your child, and yes you do love her, first you need help with loving your self.

 

[Deaf Global Nomad]

Hi Leiaza,

Welcome to the forum! Here you can come and share your achievements as well as struggles and most of us will be able to empathize with you because so many of us have been there. Some people may have learned something that may apply to you directly. Others may offer suggestions that they think might help. However, it is up to you to decide what you think will fit for you. Nobody will be upset if you accept just a few things or nothing at all....

Bright and I look forward to getting to know you!