Sufferer Hi, New Here & Kind Of Lost ( Ptsd From Domestic Violence).

[alanagwinner]

Hi, I was just diagnosed with PTSD from domestic violence, as well as emotional/mental abuse and abandonment.

I'm lost as to where to go from here. I guess the first step was seeing a therapist and finding out what's going on with myself.

I'm also going through a rough time in my marriage, I've fallen out of love & I'm not happy any more.

I used to be an active twitter user but I've since stopped to try to compromise w/my husband.

I hope to be able to meet/talk to some new people who I can relate with and support each other.

:)
~Alana

 

[franciemarnie]

Welcome Alana! You've come to a great place. Glad you are here.

 

[dms]

Welcome to the forum.

 

[nomedic1]

Welcome hope you find what you need here

 

[Rich505]

Why did you have to stop twitter?

 

[alanagwinner]

Why did you have to stop twitter?

Hi Rich, I had to stop because I was on it a lot, and my husband hated it. I also work from home & hardly ever get a chance to go out (what I realize now my husband tries to control me). I used twitter as my social interaction, my release. But he never understood that, because he never used twitter. Honestly, it's really hard not being able to talk to some of those people I built relationships with over the course of several years (since 2007). It sucks.

I'm trying to compromise but it's really hard. :/ I want to talk to them, tell them what's going on... But I can't.

 

[Rich505]

I went thought the same thing with my wife. She never spent time with me then when she was around she was glued to Facebook. I was extremely jealous of it and started to have a lack of trust. If like you said you kinda fell outa love with him he can since it and wants that attention back. That's how I felt turns out I was right to be jealous because she was having an affair and was using Facebook as a tool to contact him so his number wouldn't pop up on the bill. Not saying you are cheating but your hubby is probably fearful of the same type of thing. I still get jealous of the social networking but not so much if I jump on and see she posts something about me. Is the PTSD from this relationship?

 

[alanagwinner]

He is jealous because I would spend more time on it than talking to him, but he also would never let me go out with friends & I work from home, so I don't get much social interaction & he can only give me so much.
The therapist said the PTSD is from my past relationship, it was about 9 years ago. But there are things my husband does that put me back in that state if mind/fear that I didn't really realize until she brought it up. If we're out in public he's so dependent on me, hates me socializing. He tries to "control" me and tell me not to do something/not to go out. He'll yell at me, cuss at me, call me bitch in front of our kids... :( I used twitter as my escape from him I guess. It was the only place I felt like I didn't have to be scared?

 

[KP the nut]

Hi and welcome to the forum.

 

[rockyspine]

Hi Alana, welcome to the forums. There's lots of great resources on here for help so you won't be lost for very long. :)

Sorry to hear of your current situation as well, I hope it gets better for you.

 

[PinkSugar]

I relate to you so much! My boyfriend is extremely controlling, and ruined all of my relationships with my friends. Instead of making me leave the social network sites he watches and records every single thing I say. I've falling out of love and am waiting for the safest moment to leave him. You are a great person, tell your self everyday that him being with you is a privilege, it is earned not given. I hope you are able to find a resolution for you and your children. Feel free to message me anytime. This site has priceless support, I hope it helps you too!

Emm

 

[intothelight]

Welcome to the PTSD Forum! :)