How Are You Today?

[Nyx]

It's good you're working on it. All things you acknowledge and work on get better and make your life easier, no matter how hard it seems in the beginning.
Stay strong Jadebear.

 

[Nyx]

Today I'm an elephateal. Teal to me is an indefinate color. It seems to have more under than we can see with our eyes. And elephant because today I just can't seem to forget or shake off some weird aspects of my past. And they say elephants have a really good memory.

 

[WonderingWhy]

Today I am a "Blitten" that's for blue and a kitten.
Blue because I'm always sad. Kitten, a newborn kitten. New kittens can't see and they are weak and can barely walk. I feel like I'm weak because of the state I'm in. I also can't see anything worthwhile to come. I am sooo tired of being afraid and depressed. Sorry, it's after 3am and as usual I am afraid to go to sleep and I won't be able to think straight tomorrow. OK someone slap me. I'm feeling sorry for myself and I'm the one that can't manage to break through this PTSD!!!

 

[Nyx]

Hey, little blitten, don't be so hard on yourself. You are tired and that's what's causing you to feel this way. I think it's time for some milk and sleep. And you, as a nice blitten you are, will do just that: have some milk and then go to sleep. Think happy thoughts when you get into bed, cuddle your blanket, try feeling and enjoying every good thing there is to enjoy.
Sleep tight!

 

[WonderingWhy]

I am feeling overwhelmed. I guess maybe I am not ready to take any more steps right now. I know I might have to push myself more to make any real progress. However I think right now just sharing things I have never ever said before is a relief but also overwhelming for me.

I think the advice given is on target, but just thinking about some of the suggestions is too much. I think I need to step back a bit. I will still be here but I think I might just have to sit back for a bit.

I think I peeked a bit too far around my protective tree and need to hide again. It was far too scary! :(

 

[sisterinsurvival]

I think I peeked a bit too far around my protective tree and need to hide again. It was far too scary! :(​

My daughter and I both love your puppy. While I don't let her read what is here of course, she is pet lover and noticed your adorable pic on the screen as I was shooing her from the computer.

I can truly sympathize with the feelings you are describing. When I first began on another board three-and-a-half years ago, I would become so overwhelmed with my emotions that I could feel my panic kick in. Generally, I suppose there is no major difference between anxiety and panic except for the intensity of it.

I live with my anxiety fairly often. Panic is another story. It feels like this creeping, weak sickness that twists through my soul. I would know that it was time to take a break when I would begin to feel weak, so take all the time you need.

 

[sisterinsurvival]

An emotional storm came and went.

 

[Nyx]

Today I'm a hamsgreen. I see green as the most calm color of them all. And "hams" is for hamster. Today I feel like one because I feel I am running on my little wheel and getting nowhere, but still having the instinct to escape. And feeling vulnerable - a fist could crush me. But hey, I'm running on my little wheel, right?

 

[cherryblossom]

Yes Nyx, you are running on your little wheel, not running away. You are also green, which as you said is calm. So you are calmly trying to tackle your problems.... staying calm, because sometimes we have to accept that we don't always move on. Sometimes we just have to stay where we are for a bit, get used to that, and then move on.

 

[cherryblossom]

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This is a photo of Nyx today!! hehe :p

 

[WonderingWhy]

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This is a photo of Nyx today!! hehe :p

CB,
That's cute!!!

 

[Nyx]

That really made me laugh. Thanks, Cherryblossom, I needed that. (hugs)