How Could I Know What It Tasted Like?

[Ebifa]

Years ago I had what could only be described as a fully acted out flashback of something I've never experienced.

I don't remember experiencing it. I just remember the "flashback". Or, was it a hallucination?

What I don't understand is how could I have known what it tasted like? During the "flashback" every sense was over taken and I remember clearly what that sense conveyed. So much so that I needed a bucket during the episode. I've never DONE that terrible thing before in my life. I have no experience of my own to draw from.

I've never asked anyone what that would taste like, no one ever told me, and I certainly didn't read it anywhere. It has been nagging at me so much lately that, 4 years after the episode, I am only just now looking at Google to see if what I experienced was "correct". I'm horrified to find out that it is.

How could this be? How? Why? It doesn't make sense. It would have made more sense to find out via Google that my experience was "wrong" because I had never experienced anything like that before. Or... have I?

 

[Umese]

Can you elaborate? Is this something that is seriously impacting your everyday life or are you just curious about some strange experience you had? Are you thinking you've been blocking out abuse?

 

[Cowihe]

I can read between the lines.

There's nothing else in my experience that tastes like THAT.

Some are sweet, some are salty, but again, nothing else you can compare it to.

And even if you could compare it to something else, why would knowing what the something else tasted like remind you of THAT.....unless you've tasted THAT before.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that the most logical explanation is that you've experienced that act and taste before.

Hugs.

 

[Ebifa]

I can read between the lines.

There's nothing else in my experience that tastes like THAT...

Thank you for understanding.

Whats the likelihood of it being a total coincidence and my brain just made it up and picked a.... flavor... to go with the... hallucination? Because until now I really didn't actually know that it was in line with something in reality. I was a horrible experience.

 

[Umese]

I can read between the lines here too obviously. But it's hard to get to the bottom of the OPs actual question from what they describe.

It could be a coincidence, there is only so many ways one can picture it tasting like and it's not unthinkable you pick up hints here and there without even knowing it.

I am as hesitant to support you in your belief something must have happened as I am in denying it did. I think it's important to know if that episode colludes with other symptoms that could hint at something in your past. An episode like that alone does not mean much yet.

 

[Abov]

I can read between the lines here too obviously. But it's hard to get to the bottom of the OPs actual question from what...

Why would someone have a flashback about THAT if nothing happened?

It's not just the taste, it's the taste + the flashback.

Now we're getting into less likely to be false territory.

 

[Umese]

Why would someone have a flashback about...

Because our brains are complex machines and without knowing the context it could be anything from a very vivid nightmare to general anxiety to drugs, all the way, yes, to a flashback of abuse.

I think it's damaging to support someone in thinking they've been abused based on this information alone.

 

[Bipagu]

Thank you for understanding.

Whats the likelihood of it being a total coincidence and my brain just made it up and pick...

How do you know you are right unless you have tasted it? Are you going by a description? Have you tasted it since?

 

[Cahom]

What DID it taste like if you don't mind me asking?

 

[Behuhi]

Why would someone have a flashbacktastes THAT if nothing happened?

It's not just the taste, it's the taste + the flashb...

I have to agree taste alone is a little iffy. You can have odd tastes from sinus drainage.

 

[Wuce]

And even if you could compare it to something else, why would knowing what the something else tasted like remind you of THAT.....unless you've tasted THAT before.

My T always used to say that you cannot relate to something that you haven't experienced before. If your body reacted to feeling like that happened and that is what it tasted like and it was abhorrent to you, then that needs attention.

 

[Ebifa]

How do you know you are right unless you have tasted it? Are you going by a description? Have you tasted it since?

I recently looked up what something like that would taste like because I was hoping my harrowing experience was not in line with anything in reality. I didn't expect it to be accurate.

No drugs were involved, I have a history of other trauma, and would not have known this kind of sensory information otherwise.