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Slept like :poop: 'bout 3 1/2 hrs. Woke up and started to swear (curse) not a curser but post EMDR cursing like a freaking sailor and irritable as hell mainly due to sleep deprivation!
Still finding it hard. Going to bed much earlier which is helping, but the fear of rape is really overwhelming. Like the fear of being close to people, that has reared its ugly head as well.
Stopped using my cpap mask about 11 or so nights ago...sleeping the same as with the mask...like bull hockey...cannot tell any difference...other than not fighting with the mask...sigh. And I do not know if I will use mask again...processing...eating vegan now...also off all drugs except the natural hormone...and lost a lot of weight since being placed on cpap...and on occasion I try to wean off cpap...maybe this is now...shall see...again processing...
Really disrupted sleep waking each half an hour to turn on another Modern Family. I need to get something on repeat so I don't wake up to set stuff up again. Slept on the red couch and this isn't the best but I did relax a lot more since yesterday.