How do I keep up with 'normal life' when I am barely functioning?

[SeekingAfrica]

Let me backtrack. I've been struggling with looking for work. I've been struggling with feeling hopeless. The last few days my main to-do task, if you will, was getting through the day to the next. But my apartment getting messy because I have no motivation doesn't help. Not having work doesn't help, but applying while wondering why I exist doesn't really work great either. I'm distracted and my mood is low and I am easily not at my best. I have a BA from university, but at days like this I feel stupid and like I have no skills. I'm at the level where everything in my life feels like it's screaming for attention, it's all important, but some days I just have nothing to give to it. I'm going to therapy regularly from next week, but again, the challenge isn't what I do next week, but how do I function today. Some days being out of bed is a challenge. I got on new meds too, and maybe they will stabilize things, hopefully, but we all know that takes time to work. I feel like a bomb about to explode at any moment. Everything from answering email to being upright is too hard.
But not applying or not ordering around me, none of that is helpful. How do I hold onto regular daily things on a day when I don't know how I'll make it whatsoever?

 

[Invisible Fire]

Take a deep breath and take things a minute at a time. I started a daily planner and have my day planned out with self care things, journaling, walking, reading, yoga, when to sleep, eat and so on. You are stronger than you realize :)

 

[SeekingAfrica]

Take a deep breath and take things a minute at a time. I started a daily planner and have my day planned out with self care things, journaling, walking, reading, yoga, when to sleep, eat and so on. You are stronger than you realize :)

Do you plan out your whole week? Or do you plan each day when it comes? How do you find strength when it seems that you've been trying forever and you still are back at the start with everything? I'm finding it hard to balance the thin line between having schedule so full it makes me anxious versus being so depressed that I abandon all lists(which has been the last 2 days). What about coping with overwhelming amounts of things to do or feeling like dealing with your problems is impossible? I know people say that things pass and it's not like I haven't been in hard situation, but I am so tired of trying, I swear. I keep feeling like I won't make it and it takes all my strength to keep going. Hence the meds and therapy, but they can only do so much. And I need to survive. Somehow.

 

[Invisible Fire]

I plan every day in the morning. I have a general outline for the week. I have been working with a therapist for about a year and I feel I've made progress and even when I have "bad" days or even weeks I still can see the progress I've made. Progress for me is that I am working on things. I wasn't working on things before. I have acknowledged I have struggles that is progress for me. I understand the frustration of being tired of trying and just trying to keep my head above water. Its like swimming while the current keeps pulling you under, I get it but I just keep going. You are surviving and you have survived your trauma. I believe all of us here on this site have wellness inside of us. I've read your posts before and I admire your strength to share and to say you are struggling. Like I said before you are a lot stronger than you realize. Sorry if that don't make sense

 

[KimmyO]

Sometimes when we are at our low or lowest, the little things seem too big. I"m sorry you are going thru a rough time! I pray you are better soon. Something that helped me and helps many is taking magnesium and ginseng in the evenings to calm you mind body and spirit and get rid of sticky negative thoughts and B Complex in the mornings to give you focus and energy. =) Hope they help you too!
Another few ideas: Do your funnest thing first thing in the morning, to get you started on right foot.
Get involved in classes, meetups or volunteering that is of your interest and passion. You will find your energy there. Blessings!