Hmmm, you all have shared things to think about. In my case, I do believe in God and have since a very tiny girl. I feel that if I had not have this faith, through the years, I would have killed myself and been dead long time ago...or at the very least, committed emotional suicide (which at one time in my life, I did enter into but the little spark of faith left inside me eventually brought me to my senses...whatever was left of them! The only thing I wanted to do in life was to be a bag lady and live in Half Moon Bay, California. Yeah..over-the-top-weird, I know. But it felt safe and right, at the time.). Anyway, It has never occurred to me to blame God for my pain, abuse, fear, or troubles. I have always seen that as the bad part of some people. Not everyone is kind or loving...just the opposite. My path simply put me in the crosshairs of such people. But, to have late-onset (CPTSD) PTSD and not knowing how to hide or control the turmoil inside me, anymore, causing me to seek out counseling, makes me feel that somehow I am taking my hand out of God's and putting it into another's. However, in trying to weigh this conflict, I also used the logic of going to a medical doctor or dentist when needed. That has helped some. I guess, I have decided as long as I am not asked to do anything that is contrary to my faith, counseling is be useful. I was just wondering how others have sorted out this conflict.