How good is your general memory?

[InsertCoinsHere]

I have extreme difficulties during general answer quizes and games with my own and additionally girlfriend's family and friends. I can be playing card games, musical quizzes, question/answer types.. and the answers won't appear in my mind, only blackness.

This is a constant problem in my daily life. I can navigate life efficiently (I'm socially intelligent, emotionally intelligent and intellectually sound).

I've had depression and anxiety for the past 15-10 years and only recently got diagnosed with complex PTSD (most likely have been for a long time but struggling through daily life... Like many stories here)

I feel stupid when I play these fun question games in front of family and friends, I feel like a shadow of my former self and totally useless when I cannot recollect a single simple fact when everyone around me is answering random simple questions off the top of their heads.

Do other people have similar experiences? Did it get better? How? And do you have any advice?

I mentioned this to my therapist before and she stated it was a byproduct of depression.. It's simply upsetting as it's been a long while since I even felt like 'I got what was going on around me'..

Thank you.

 

[EveHarrington]

Is it a problem of being put on the spot?

My memory is good but I blank when I need to come up with knowledge on demand.

 

[InsertCoinsHere]

My memory is constantly poor in terms of general factual information.. I also find it difficult to socialise though I am social and push through.. Thoughts don't come to my mind it's as if I have to mechanically create my thoughts which aren't purely focused on me and my 'story' e.g. issues, past, how to fix, feeling low, Thoughts of worthlessness.

I found out yesterday a bit more about depersonalization.. I feel it describes me well.. I definitely dissociate but am yet unsure to what degree.

It's just frustrating when around friends I feel so 'dumb' it doesn't help my self esteem. This has been a problem for at least 10-15 years now and appears to be getting worse.

Thanks for your reply.