How Much More Is One Person Supposed To Take

[jademegan]

I either sleep too much or not at all.. never any inbetween. Last night i was close to hurting myself, not because i wanted to die but because i wanted to feel a pain other than the pain i'm feeling in my head. I dont know what to do anymore.

 

[jagem]

Hi jademegan, sleeping is really difficult when dealing with trauma and I am really proud of you for staying strong. One thing that helps me a lot is to read until I am absolutely too tired to read anymore. I don't know if you enjoy reading or if you have tried this already but maybe you could give this a shot if you haven't yet. Thank you for being strong enough to post and be open about this because it is so hard to talk about but also very important to talk about.

 

[jademegan]

Hi jademegan, sleeping is really difficult when dealing with trauma and I am really proud of you for stay...

Hi, yes i love reading, it helps keep my brain occupied even for a short while, i will certainly try that, thankyou!

 

[SeekingAfrica]

I so get the feeling, especially lately.

As far as sleeping goes, I used to be a big reader, but since I have anxiety, I find it harder to concentrate, so I read when I'm more relaxed. But since I have trouble sleeping too, I got used to falling asleep by watching until I can't keep my eyes open(light stuff, youtube videos, tv series etc. -or just rewatching favorite series, too). It's a bad habit, but for now, I pretty much can't sleep otherwise, unless I take meds, so for the time being it will have to do...:/

 

[Morphius]

I either sleep too much or not at all.. never any inbetween. Last night i was close to hurting myself...

@jademegan, so much of what you said resonated with me. It's really hard to sleep as it is, and when I do, it's so inconsistent. I don't sleep well and on top of that, it's either too much or too little. It's gets so difficult to cope with these inconsistencies that I have this urge sometimes to harm myself because it's hard for me to do something simple and I'd like to feel something new for a change. It can be energy-draining.

For me, personally, when it gets this tough, I go out for a late-night walk. Sometimes I listen to music, sometimes I don't. Other times, a hot shower will help ease the tension and relax me to the point of wanting to sleep. The last resort is watching my favorite shows until I fall asleep, something that will make me laugh or feel the opposite of what I'm feeling.

Maybe try something along those lines?

Just a thought: if you're in therapy, perhaps your doctor can prescribe you something that will calm the body and mind down so you can more easily and quickly fall asleep and stay asleep?

 

[jademegan]

I so get the feeling, especially lately.

As far as sleeping goes, I used to be a big reader, but...

im sorry youre going through the same thing, although its nice to know im not alone in this

 

[jademegan]

@jademegan, so much of what you said resonated with me. It's really hard to sleep a...

i will definately try that, i'm not currently in therapy but my doctor recently referred me again so hopefully i will be soon!!

 

[lovely.rabbit]

I can understand your feelings in regards to this, I have a love of cutting myself to feel pain, it makes me feel better and in control.
I realize that this is not healthy but it can be addicting and has never really had anything to do with wanting to die/kill myself its just a coping mechanism for when i feel numb and not grounded. definitely not the best thing to be doing but there are more people than will admit that do it as well.