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I was just thinking that I have gotten enough side income to manage at least a couple of months. While job hunting. Now one thing fell through and I am supposed to get it together in 3 weeks. Or if not to somehow both make enough income to replace what I need AND to be starting a new job at the same time. POSSIBLY be starting an online store and blog to promote it for any chance of even small income from that. And I have health issues and mental health stuff to keep balanced and it's a LOT. And I am not a child anymore and I know how long it takes, BOTH finding new work AND online businesses. How am I to have faith, with all that I know about how things work, and about my situation, how am I supposed to have faith that I can manage this?
I'm sorry that this isn't so positive but this just hit me out of nowhere.
I just...
I am struggling right now just to manage this situation, how am I also to manage ever having savings with this mess?
How do I keep all these balls in the air until things get stable, how do I keep faith that I can get better? I was just starting to feel secure and bam, something more happens. And I don't even have time for baby steps and learning and what not- money must be made, things must be paid, and I somehow must keep it together. And I have to somehow have faith that it can happen, and have a zillion mini side jobs and somehow make it happen with all that is going on in the world. Unemployment and disability not an option yet. I have to handle this (and let's face it, by the time I do handle it, I won't need them. oh joy).
I'm sorry! Panicking. A lot. Hopefully, I'll cry it out tomorrow, pay all that needs to get paid and then somehow figure this out. In the timeframe I have.
All I know is a. at least I can finally pay my rent(made deal with my landlord, so it's already a week late, so I'm lucky I can pay it) and living bills and stuff
and b. I won't solve this crying and panicking, so I need to get it out of my system, sleep it off and start fresh.
Please comment if you want for support, if you have useful ideas and if you can think of any inspiring book or movie that can be useful.
p.s. in terms of services and helpful organizations, I am not in the USA, and also I'm a foreigner where I live which limits what I have access to.
Also, I have been self-employed for the longest time, so I don't have credit cards to max out. So, I'm pretty much on my own.
Though in fairness I have survived a lot, so... there's some hope that somehow I can handle this.
I'm sorry that this isn't so positive but this just hit me out of nowhere.
I just...
I am struggling right now just to manage this situation, how am I also to manage ever having savings with this mess?
How do I keep all these balls in the air until things get stable, how do I keep faith that I can get better? I was just starting to feel secure and bam, something more happens. And I don't even have time for baby steps and learning and what not- money must be made, things must be paid, and I somehow must keep it together. And I have to somehow have faith that it can happen, and have a zillion mini side jobs and somehow make it happen with all that is going on in the world. Unemployment and disability not an option yet. I have to handle this (and let's face it, by the time I do handle it, I won't need them. oh joy).
I'm sorry! Panicking. A lot. Hopefully, I'll cry it out tomorrow, pay all that needs to get paid and then somehow figure this out. In the timeframe I have.
All I know is a. at least I can finally pay my rent(made deal with my landlord, so it's already a week late, so I'm lucky I can pay it) and living bills and stuff
and b. I won't solve this crying and panicking, so I need to get it out of my system, sleep it off and start fresh.
Please comment if you want for support, if you have useful ideas and if you can think of any inspiring book or movie that can be useful.
p.s. in terms of services and helpful organizations, I am not in the USA, and also I'm a foreigner where I live which limits what I have access to.
Also, I have been self-employed for the longest time, so I don't have credit cards to max out. So, I'm pretty much on my own.
Though in fairness I have survived a lot, so... there's some hope that somehow I can handle this.