what a day! i felt a little down, but not too bad, just another rainy monday. i was mumbling under my breath about indoor recess, and how much i hate it. one of my little boys(almost 5) came in with a cold, runny nose, etc. about half-way through our first hour, his nose was making me nauseous, so i asked him to go get a tissue. what a surprise when he pulled a red bandana out of his pocket. i was immediately in that room again. i had to just sit down in the floor, skirt and all, and try to calm down. after i got ahold of myself, i asked him to put it away, and he did. but i could not concentrate and i was shaking so hard. i went to the office and asked our administrator to please see if he could get him to give it up, and keep it for him. he knows about the ptsd, and seemed to understand, and removed it for me. i still have no idea what we covered today. i think they mostly played while i sat, shaking with my head down. i know that things like that won't happen every day, but how do you deal with it? now i can't get things off my mind again. i feel like a total failure as a teacher.help????????
