How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

[YoungAndAngry]

Hey everyone,

There's been so much to read, I'm so happy :)

veiled, you took the words out of my mouth when you were talking about looking in the mirror.
The bags under my eyes look horrible!
And I don't think I've combed my hair in... (*thinks) ... geez, probally over a week at least... :( eeek!
I just throw it up into a pony tail, no drying or combing after showers.

It's like I just don't see the point in looking good, when I feel like shit.

Basically had a nervous breakdown after I last posted in trauma diaries.
And even though I wasn't posting, I was still on here,
just didn't have the energy or concentration to be repying.
Not sure if I'm over it yet, but things are starting to look better

Well, enough with the negativity,
I'm starting to pull myself out of depression, so I should be happy

I just wanted to mention how thrilled I am to see so many new people posting in this thread!!!! :)

 

[Deleted member 3]

Guys,

Just a quick note.........Anthony and I are in the process of moving. Well he is in Brisbane and I am doing what I can, albeit belly and toddler in tow. Please forgive us if we do not respond straight away, Anthony gets back tomorrow removalists are in to do the pre-pack, uplift and dropoff of furniture on Tuesday. I know Monday afternoon/evening he is planning to do some cleaning at the new place so he may be online, Tuesday evening or Wednesday. Please be patient. Thankyou.

 

[kimG]

Kerrie-Anne, you guys take as much time as you need. You've got a lot to do! We'll be fine here...missing you all, but we'll be fine...

 

[Boo-Damphir]

September 18, 2006

I'm feeling pretty good, have been for the last couple of days. For the most part the withdrawal symptoms are gone. With the lowered dose of Klonopin, I think I feel ok about it. In a wierd way, I'm actually looking forward to taking the next step down.
Hope everyone had a nice weekend, it's getting nice and cold at night now and the early fall flowers are rich vibrant reds and golds. Hope to have more pictures to post this coming week as well.

Peace to all,
Boo

 

[Farmer]

Fall is showing it's face here to. Last week it was 80 F. now it's 40F. blah!!!

 

[Nam]

I'm good here! Had a nice party over the weekend and thinking that I kind of like having people over at my house. I'm a bit sad that the weekend is ending and the work week is starting, but all I have to do is make some plans and forge ahead. Thanks to you all that have supported me.

YA, I've wondered where you went..I'm thinking about you.

 

[Deleted member 93]

Got beyond sick the night of my last post and have been that way all weekend and had to raise up my dose a little. It is just now giving some relief, I can't believe how bad this shit screws you up if you cut too fast. Came off that last cut way too fast. At least I am still down to 2 mg even after raising it back up. I am sooooo regretting eating supper this evening, but I had to eat at some point. I just wish it would stay in!

So, I guess overall my weekend just blew... My mind feels like it is on vacation too.

 

[cookie]

kerri-anne, be careful and don't overdo. i hate moving! i can't imagine trying to move with a toddler and pregnant at the same time.(shudder!) i don't know how you feel about prayer, but i'll be praying for a timely, safe, and easy move for y'all. take care.

 

[piglet]

Yesterday was the first day of our new college year. Following a weekend of virtually no sleep I was shattered by the end of the working day. My colleagues even noticed how bad my shakes were.

Went to bed early, but only got 4 hours sleep, including nightmares, so not feeling great this morning. I did take some diazepam at 2am to help me get back to sleep, but it didn't work.

I'm trying really hard not to let the depression get a hold, cos I'm done for then (meaning that work will be near impossible). I'll be glad when teaching starts on Thursday, cos I won't have so much running around to do and I can concentrate just on teaching.

:drugs:

 

[YoungAndAngry]

Thanks Nam, I've been thinking of you as well :)

Piglet, definatly don't let depression set in!
I'm just barely crawling out of that hole, and trust me you just don't want to have to go down that road!!!

You talk about being against sleeping pills, so if you are at the point where you are willing to take diazepam... well, I know your desperate for sleep.
My advice would be to get a script from your doctor for a good "incase" med that works for you, and you don't get side-effects.
You don't have to use this medication everynight (unless your doc insists for certain reasons),
I would suggest that you only use it the night before a big event, something that you absolutely need sleep for, and probally are going to be too anxious to sleep, take the pill 10 - 11 hours (minimum 9 hours) before you have to be up.
This way, you are still in control, and you get the rest you need.
Trust me I still remember my sleepless nights.... *shiver

So far my day has been busy,
In the middle of checking my email I lost internet connection,
at first I thought it was a problem with the cable company, but my TV still worked.
Totally threw off my day... it was like I was lost for awhile there.

Ended up replanting my banana tree into a bigger pot so it can grow.
Took major effort (and my back pain is getting intolerable) but it was long overdue.

Checked computer again, and now I have Internet,
thank goodness!
lol,
I'm a true geek @ heart :)

Take care all

 

[Nam]

I'm still kind of dumpy. Yesterday, my hub said I was ho-hum. Today he says, "You're in a dip." I hope that's all it is. So...what did I do today? I played computer games, read a book, and laid in bed. But...I did take a shower and swept the floor. Yesterday I slept much better and I hope the same for tonight. So with that, I hope the rest of you have peaceful, restful sleep tonight.

 

[anthony]

My casemanager could only come next Friday and has no other openings that week....Some help...

I know that I need to keep up with my usual self care...like eating 3 meals a day...getting 8 hours of sleep....some exercise....and spending time every day doing my art and journaling...Seems like all that is a momentous task

Wildfire, what you mention above about what you need to do in a day is not actually correct all the time. What you do now, you do to maintain yourself, or have been learning and performing to help maintain yourself. During times such as moving house, going away, etc etc, you need to prioritise a little better, to what you need to do vs. what you want to do.

Normally you wouldn't have this extra task of packing and moving, so your normal routine works for you, however; now you do have packing and moving, you need to cut back the non-essential events within your day.

Why? Well, if you try and maintain the same daily routine, then put another huge task like moving on top of that, all this bottles up to stress and anxiety, the exact thing your trying to counteract with relaxation, exercise, healthy diet, art, etc etc... It is not achievable to do a normal daily routine, plus add a huge task too the daily list. If it was a small task, like go to this shop or location to pickup an item, that is different, but the huge task of packing and moving is another.

If you have to pack for 4 hours a day for example, then you need to drop one or two daily activities, regardless whether they are for your relaxation, lose them and pack, then pick them back up again in a few days time once completed. Do the same during actually moving day and afterwards. Cater those days to suit, not try and maintain the move and routine... it only causes more stress and anxiety.