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Kebuhen
You're so right about that. Looking back, I always made excuses for her behavior. I always blamed myself for everything because it meant not having to hold her responsible and therefore ultimately having to leave. I allowed myself to accept that treatment because it was easier to blame myself for it than to get pissed off and walk away. I just didn't want to walk away. No matter the cost to myself in the end.
I was a pawn because I loved her so much. She let me take the blame, knowing I would, because I loved her. I always forgave under the pretense that it was her PTSD and she couldn't control it and I had pushed her to do it.
You're right, I will be better for it in the end. I am learning to let things go and not blame myself for everything. It's a long road. I'm getting there. Thanks for sharing your story. I'm glad to hear that you were strong enough to do what you needed to do for yourself.
I was a pawn because I loved her so much. She let me take the blame, knowing I would, because I loved her. I always forgave under the pretense that it was her PTSD and she couldn't control it and I had pushed her to do it.
You're right, I will be better for it in the end. I am learning to let things go and not blame myself for everything. It's a long road. I'm getting there. Thanks for sharing your story. I'm glad to hear that you were strong enough to do what you needed to do for yourself.
