I Can't Leave Therapy

[Nighthawk]

I left im suffering it is all just cruel.:cry:

 

[Justmehere]

:hug:s @Nighthawk :hug:s

 

[seedling]

:hug::hug: Sweet darling child, hang on.

 

[Nighthawk]

@seedling that is truly how im feeling

 

[Nighthawk]

I can not see how this is healthy or that any person should be made to go through such a cruel and harmful and unnatural disconnection.

 

[Justmehere]

You are not alone. You have an entire forum here for you.

Therapy terminations are a weird and confusing thing for me too.

I wish my old therapist was one hat I could see every now and hen just so that it hadn't felt like an abandonment at the time.

But it was still all worth it for me.

 

[Nighthawk]

@Justmehere I am sure the impact will ease over time. I know I left for the right reasons. I just cant wrap my head around it. I just don't even want to go there with another ever again. Its all one big lie why enter into anther crated realty.

 

[Abstract]

@Nighthawk
Sending you much comfort for your pain and suffering.

This abandonment isn't about this t remember. Those feelings are old feelings. Ultimately. you are choosing this. Not choosing suffering but rather choosing the next phase in your journey and treatment.

And the other thing is that you will never loose the things this t has given you and that you have gained from her. We don't loose all we get from connection. That can stay with us. I know it doesnt feel like that now. I am being hypocritical as spend a lot of my life wanting to go live on a very deserted desert island and never speak to a human again but its easier to see it from the outside. Sometimes I can see that isolation gets me nowhere fast.

I totally get the temptation to shut down into a frozen state of independence. I'm there constantly and especialy over the last 2 years. In fact I was there totally recently. The trouble is that there is no growth when one is frozen.

Your other t behaved unprofessionally and appallingly. Don't let her win here. It is normal you are reacting to that but don't let her actions steal your opportunities for healing.

For the present just let yourself mourn the loss and process this and any past loss. Its ok to do that.