I Can't Seem To Get Off The Downward Spiral

[Nighthawk]

After 12 hours of sleep. I feel drained completely flat. My T had me on the phone for a while last night she was recommending I go get a tranquilizer. Hopefully I am out of where I was yesterday.

Thank you for letting me know you were there.

Nighthawlk

 

[anni]

Hi again,

PH's post was rather lovely and distracting. I like things which make me look at stuff in various, non-obvious ways. I don't know why it's helpful, it just is sometimes.

Meds at pretty personal, but if your T thinks it's a good idea for a tranquilizer perhaps it would be helpful. I do know that sometimes I can't call myself back, if that makes any sense, and get out of my own way, and will need a lorazapam just to knock that stupid adrenaline down to size.

Yes, we're here. Gosh, I hope today is a little better, or at least a little more peaceful for you.

Thinking of you,

Anni

 

[Nighthawk]

Totally lost I don't really understand why I am trapped, WTF is going on? Why can"t I stop this? Asking for help is NOT something I am good at... Going back too sleep

 

[James B.]

Wish I had advice, but know exactly how you feel. My sleep has become a bit disrupted, so instead of fighting it, kinda just going with it... Figure as long as I get enough rest overall, it's OK.

 

[Iam]

Good point James.....I am doing the same. I slept for several hours in the late afternoon one day this week. Though harder for those who have to go to work, they can't just crash when the need hits them.

Rest today Nighthawlk and remember that you have 2 vacations coming up! You have been very strong in all of this. Posting, pm'ing, im'ing, talking with your T on the phone. Good job reaching out! You are at a tough point no doubt, but will get thru it and out the otherside. Wish I could hurry it up for you...for all of us, but we will make it ;o)

 

[seedling]

I'm glad you slept last night. I just got up, was up early and went back to bed.

When I'm at my worst I try to surrender to it, let it wash through me and just let it be there no matter how it feels. I think Becvan had an article in one of the home page areas that talked about something similar - stopping emotions at their most basic levels. Not feeling guilty about feeling guilty about feeling guilty etc.. Things seem to build and build in me sometimes until I realize that I have too many layers of thinking/emotion going on just to try to control a basic at-the-bottom-issue.

Being at a low point can make you really wiped out, lie and rest if that's all you can do.

Will be thinking of you.

 

[Nighthawk]

Doing much better. I am not quit sure of what happened. Thank you for all the support and well wishes.

Nighthawlk

 

[anni]

Such a pleasant post to see this morning, NH. :) I'm glad for you.

 

[Nighthawk]

Did not mean to post here sorry

 

[OKRADLAK]

(((((((((Night)))))))))))) You are a strong person and I am glad you are here. I am glad you have been saved many times!! It's hard..........I know. Impossible most days, at least in my world. But I am glad you are here!!!

 

[MouseWedger]

Night, I am awed at your resiliency and how far you have come. You are truly an amazing person!
hugs and happy thoughts
Mouse