The truth about your statement rings true for me, especially at my most trying times of this joureny. But, what if, it really isn't how we think or picture it to be, this death thing.... what if, it all continues, what you are feeling now, but no way out, no solutions, no help, no support and it just stays the same , with out hope.....
Too many of us made it to the other side of what you are feeling.... and I didn't really want to die, I wanted to know life with answers... tho I wanted quick answers and solutions.... that's not how it works.... There is no easier softer way.... I wish there was sometimes... but there just isn't.
You are still concerned about your pets.... you don't see that as hope, but I do.... and pretty sure others see that also.
We don't have magic pain free answers.... that's why we are all here, trying to do this 'living' thing. We already know how to die, we don't know how to live....
Maybe something as simple as find one thing to be grateful for , can start your foundation for living.... not burden it down with responsibility, but something as simple as seeing a little wildflower growing thru the cracks in the sidewalk... which to me is very symbolic of us.... making it thru... regardless of the obstacles...
I hope you keep posting, and someone will end up saying what you need to hear to give you some hope.... I understand how tired you are. I'm pretty sure we all do.... so, even at this stage of things, you are not alone.... and if we stick around, we learn how to rest.... others teach us how to rest.... but they also encourage us to not give up.....
So, can only send cyber hugs, but the intention is real.
