I Don't Know Why I'm Here

[Gs172003]

This happens to me when something triggers me badly or when something in my environment is a stressor t...

Somebody teach me how to do this

 

[henamedmeowl]

Shit. This happens to me and I hate it. The last few years or so I forced myself to keep moving ... I don't know I just starting finding ways to inspire myself, finding things to desire, new things, old things, whatever to motivate myself to keep moving forward. I have a poster board over my desk with quotes and photos, I have a notebook with all my dreams the smallest to the craziest, and when I start sinking or fall down I look to those things as a guide and when I feel myself slipping into dissociation or wherever I try to think about what i want and add to my board or my notebook...they serve as sort of touch stones for me...but it is a constant thing ...it's like the crazy wanting to quit school, and quit work, and just move away to the mountains or become a hermit or move into a mental hospital and all the big decisions that come up for me during that time I also write them too...I make lists and plans...and when they are on paper in the context of my dreams and why I am doing what I am doing I sort of fall back into ..oh I am doing A to get to B...which will free me....and this brings me back to earth

sorry if that sounded jumbled...I am a work in progress but this is what's working for me and the only thing that pulls me out of the gutter...no one else around to help me up just me..*hugs* i hope things get better

 

[Deleted member 37585]

its been 36 years and I can't stop thinking about it ,all day every day when I manage to fall asleep my dreams are nothing but gore ,everywhere don't like to sleep much.wish it would stop but it never does

 

[aut555]

This happens from time to time. I don't know why I'm here, why I'm doing what I'm doing, what I'm hoping...

This use to happen a lot. But since l have become emotionally healthier, l don't suffer from it. But l live with no TV, didn't work, so l was able to clear emotionally all the stops that paralyzed me. Now when l get bad news, it doesn't throw me into a endless tailspin. But l have serious boundaries in place and l live by those everyday. Those are my security.

 

[Muttly]

sometimes if I can make myself do art, it can help. sometimes if I can find something that makes me laugh a bunch it can help. Mostly though, I still use unhealthy coping mechanisms to get out of times like that.

I'm sorry you are stuck in that place. Staying the course is a good plan.