I Feel Hardened Emotionally.

[PerfectlyFlawed]

Anyone feel hardened by PTSD or their circumstances?

 

[Philippa]

Yes, and it has caused me to be hardened towards my birth givers and brothers as well. I've pushed them all away and cut them out of my life...no contact whatsoever. I'm in a much better place now and doing well with my life...with lots of positive things happening, but I am still very self-protective and do not want to risk exposing myself to them anymore. It just isn't worth it and I feel like I don't really get much out of the interactions with any of them, which is really sad, but that's how I feel.

 

[PerfectlyFlawed]

Yes, it s how I feel as well. I have pushed people out of my life, but however, many good things have happened too.

I am too protective of myself as well. Cannot let anyone in.

 

[PerfectlyFlawed]

Anger pushing people away. I guess

 

[Anna]

Anyone feel hardened by PTSD or their circumstances?

Yes. People also annoy me intensly. I tend to push people away by saying weird or uncomfortable things. Sometimes I will spark up conversations about parasites or body functions just to disgust them.

I feel numb nearly all the time lately. Just like a robot doing chores with this nothingness inside.

 

[saffy]

Yes I have a great wall around me that is very hard to penetrate.

I fear showing emotions, it makes me feel vulnerable. I fear getting close it makes me feel paranoid about their motives. I distrust what people say about me if it is positive. I fear abandonment and rejection so do not let anyone close enough to do this.

I too can walk away from someone like they never existed. I fear my own emotions and thoughts. I do not turst myself to make the right decisions or do the right things.

I hate being alone but emotionally it is safer.

I think most people are flaky and not in their truth. I also think most people are self absorbed and inconsiderate. Most people just bore me with there constant moaning about money, the laundry or work and other mundane things they all seem to sit and talk about over and over again for long lengths of time.

Best wishes
Saffy :)

 

[Philippa]

Yes. People also annoy me intensly. I tend to push people away by saying weird or uncomfortable things. Sometimes I will spark up conversations about parasites or body functions just to disgust them

Oh wow. I thought I was the only one who did this. I don't do it as much anymore, but I used to say things I knew would disturb people around me, to make sure they wouldn't want to come near me again.

 

[MomOfTwo]

I do as far as letting people in or being vulnerable myself. I as well think out of sight, out of mind with many people. I feel bad at times that I disconnect from friends and family but it is something I need. I am trying to surround myself with people that are capable of loving me for me and where I do not have to pretend to be someone I am not. I am a the point in my life deciding whether some relationships are really worth the heartache and trouble they create. I am aware of the capabilities from my mom and accept it but when it comes to abuse I think it is just not worth it. Even when you are in a good frame of mind it is wearing.

 

[PerfectlyFlawed]

I am so glad I am not alone! You guys are great!

 

[PerfectlyFlawed]

I also wanted to say, I feel hardened emotionally to those who live a 'perfect life'. Those whos lives have not been shattered by trauma.

People at my church often are like this. it's like they live in a 'fake' world. Thier marriages, kids, and SUV's.
Makes me sick. They turn a blind eye to those who really need help