I Feel Mostly Recovered, But Still Preoccupied By The Idea That Suicide Will Be Inevitable

[Pippa10]

To all who have replied,
Thank you so much for taking the time to reply to me. There are so many helpful answers here, all the advice and suggestions and even the posts that reassure me that other people feel the same way, as sad as it is that any of us feel like this.
I was offered CBT last year but I decided not to do it as it meant I would have had to stay and live at home instead of taking up a job that I had wanted for a long time. Ironically I made this choice because I didn't want PTSD to hold me back any more than it already had. Maybe that wasn't the right decision and maybe I made that decision because I still have this niggling feeling of it definitely happening again, which may still be a symptom. It's hard to say but a lot of your responses have helped me shed some light on it so I am going to see what I can do re: mindfulness and cbt courses. Thanks again for the advice and best of luck to you all with your recovery too.

 

[Anarchy]

I was offered CBT last year but I decided not to do it as it meant I would have had to stay and live at home instead of taking up a job that I had wanted for a long time. Ironically I made this choice because I didn't want PTSD to hold me back any more than it already had.

With Skype and the other voice over internet protocols, it needn't hold you back.

The aim of CBT is to train you to be your own therepist. I know some will disagree with me writing this, but with a reasonably intelligent and well grounded person as a reality anchor to identify when the PTSD is distorting things, you can probably do a lot of the work yourself.

Good luck on your road to recovery.
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