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I got on Pristiq day 5, and man I can tell a huge difference. No more electrical body pain flashbacks that make me walk slow, and with almost a limp. My regular talk therapist said my mental and emotional pain over road my nervous system, and also gave me some techniques I haven't had to use as of the second day of this medication. When I was traumatized at 17 I was beside myself for a day, and no one would listen to me after that they said I was hallucinating the whole thing. I got misdiagnosed after a trauma as bipolar and didn't tell this Doctor about it, but he must have called for my records or something.
As a teenager they put me on haldol, thorazine, and lithum looking back they punished me for what others did. I was in a bubble for over a month and could hardly talk, and getting of cold turkey went into a psychosis for a month or so, which is common with Haldol I guess. They use it in Russia for political dissent, and have stopped using it in prison as its cruel and unusual and locks you up physically. I'm prone to psychosis with drugs, psych meds, and PTSD now. But, it's only when stalking and trauma coincide with it as well as anorexia, and vitamin deficincies.
The first session he was sure I wasn't bipolar as I've been on anti depressants before with absolutely no mania. Then all of a sudden second session as soon as I walked in he said I was bipolar, and it's not my ptsd. He got that in 15 min right.......
So he tried Lamictal which made me supper quick to anger the first day, and I felt that buckshot metal in my body. I had electrical feeling flashbacks anyway why add metal to that mess. That's what it feels like.
So I told him I stopped it in the third session, and if he couldn't prescribe the one antidepressant that my genetics test said I could take them I would seek other options. So he got all stressed and said "I don't want you to get manic." And say 5 I'm completely relaxed with no OCD thoughts about my many traumas rubbed in my face like it was in the past. But, this pill is used for PTSD and has an anti-anxiety properly to it.
I've been treated like shit by shrinks, and others in the past who can never be wrong about anything. They are always so f*cking egotistical and cruel. The shit I went through would push so many into suicide. It f*cking hurts sometimes to know I lost 21 years trying to figure out what happened to me. I've been told I'm a looser over and over, and even with proof was told I deserved it in the end. Very painful, but I'm glad I found something. I was depressed but never had the electrical torture like this before the past year. Well I'm my 20's and early 30's are gone waisted for other peoples vicious hate. I didn't know what exactly happened until this past year. I was prmasutically and psychologically tortured really bad.
Any way f*ck am I got the right script, and it's working exactly as stated by the manufacturer this time. I have learned people are really sick. Really sick of your not their family, or friends. Strangers torture people in this ego I'm always right society it seems.
Fight for yourself no one else will. Trust me on that.
Happy still even after a long rant. They took away my life and anything good like relationships, school, work, and left me feeling raped and as if it was my fault. Now I'm alone with nothing except serious damage. But, no electricity coursing through my body from mental torture so, I guess I'll count my blessings for the day. While the pigs who did it live a wonderful life after high school.
Nothing I can do except live through it anyway.
As a teenager they put me on haldol, thorazine, and lithum looking back they punished me for what others did. I was in a bubble for over a month and could hardly talk, and getting of cold turkey went into a psychosis for a month or so, which is common with Haldol I guess. They use it in Russia for political dissent, and have stopped using it in prison as its cruel and unusual and locks you up physically. I'm prone to psychosis with drugs, psych meds, and PTSD now. But, it's only when stalking and trauma coincide with it as well as anorexia, and vitamin deficincies.
The first session he was sure I wasn't bipolar as I've been on anti depressants before with absolutely no mania. Then all of a sudden second session as soon as I walked in he said I was bipolar, and it's not my ptsd. He got that in 15 min right.......
So he tried Lamictal which made me supper quick to anger the first day, and I felt that buckshot metal in my body. I had electrical feeling flashbacks anyway why add metal to that mess. That's what it feels like.
So I told him I stopped it in the third session, and if he couldn't prescribe the one antidepressant that my genetics test said I could take them I would seek other options. So he got all stressed and said "I don't want you to get manic." And say 5 I'm completely relaxed with no OCD thoughts about my many traumas rubbed in my face like it was in the past. But, this pill is used for PTSD and has an anti-anxiety properly to it.
I've been treated like shit by shrinks, and others in the past who can never be wrong about anything. They are always so f*cking egotistical and cruel. The shit I went through would push so many into suicide. It f*cking hurts sometimes to know I lost 21 years trying to figure out what happened to me. I've been told I'm a looser over and over, and even with proof was told I deserved it in the end. Very painful, but I'm glad I found something. I was depressed but never had the electrical torture like this before the past year. Well I'm my 20's and early 30's are gone waisted for other peoples vicious hate. I didn't know what exactly happened until this past year. I was prmasutically and psychologically tortured really bad.
Any way f*ck am I got the right script, and it's working exactly as stated by the manufacturer this time. I have learned people are really sick. Really sick of your not their family, or friends. Strangers torture people in this ego I'm always right society it seems.
Fight for yourself no one else will. Trust me on that.
Happy still even after a long rant. They took away my life and anything good like relationships, school, work, and left me feeling raped and as if it was my fault. Now I'm alone with nothing except serious damage. But, no electricity coursing through my body from mental torture so, I guess I'll count my blessings for the day. While the pigs who did it live a wonderful life after high school.
Nothing I can do except live through it anyway.
