Hi I was told I have ptsd, some years ago.
After 10yrs of voilance by my husband I finally thought I was free from him, but alas that was not the case. After 7yrs of being away from him it feels like I'm still there, I cannot use knifes or boil the kettle as every time I do it triggers.
My life is such a mess, I'm no longer able to work and have lost all of what I was. I keep trying to improve my life but it feels as though nothing I do improves it. Being round males has to be the hardest of all, even going to the shops has to be so planned. I feel like a prisoner in my home. Nights have to be the worst, the quietness is just too much.
Bless my daughter who has taken on so much with this illness, will sit outside the bathroom door singing and talking to me, just so I feel safe in the bathroom, and holds me when I just totally cannot handle anymore.
I do have help and the medication they have me on helps, and now as I am writing this I wonder can it get any worse.
After 10yrs of voilance by my husband I finally thought I was free from him, but alas that was not the case. After 7yrs of being away from him it feels like I'm still there, I cannot use knifes or boil the kettle as every time I do it triggers.
My life is such a mess, I'm no longer able to work and have lost all of what I was. I keep trying to improve my life but it feels as though nothing I do improves it. Being round males has to be the hardest of all, even going to the shops has to be so planned. I feel like a prisoner in my home. Nights have to be the worst, the quietness is just too much.
Bless my daughter who has taken on so much with this illness, will sit outside the bathroom door singing and talking to me, just so I feel safe in the bathroom, and holds me when I just totally cannot handle anymore.
I do have help and the medication they have me on helps, and now as I am writing this I wonder can it get any worse.
