I Just Want To Function!

[Glenn R.]

It's one of these mornings I am really struggling with trauma following another night of horrible nightmares. I'm so damn upset about it. It's got me all screwed up. I don't want hurt like this. I don't want to be disassociated either, as was the case the past couple of days. That's even worse.

I just want to function, dear lord, I just want to function. I don't want to be in such agony. I just want to be able to function in the here and now. I'm not asking for anymore. I'm not looking for more money, a better car, job or anything else material. I just want to function, play on a level playing field with emotionally stable people, and be able to work hard and be useful to others and the world. Is that too much to ask for?

I really do hate this f*ckin' disorder. I despise it. It is my worst enemy. I hate never hated a person as much as this illness. I don't understand why I was brought into this world just to suffer. My shrink says something(s) occurred or I was neglected significantly the first three years of my life when my brain was beginning to develop, especially the right (emotional) side.

I just wasn't prepared for living. I feel like I was 10 steps back of every other kid when I began kindergarten. It all went downhill from there.

 

[sun seeker]

I don't know what to say to fix this @Glenn R., but can I offer you a hug?

 

[Glenn R.]

That is well appreciated, [DLMURL="https://www.myptsd.com/c/members/sun-seeker.28120/"]sun seeker[/DLMURL]! Sometimes, a hug or compassion look can do far more than any verbiage. In fact, that is quite often the case. Thank you so much.

 

[illusionist]

Known your pain....sending an enveloping hug to give you peace and warmth.

 

[theotherside]

I know how you feel. It's so hard and unfair. I'm going through the same thing. I hope we both feel better and are able to make some progress soon.

 

[PlainJane]

I hear you loud and clear. It bites hard. Totally feeling your frustration right now. I can see you're favorable to hugs so I'm sending you one! Hope you feel better soon!