Does anyone ever just want to scream?

[Fallfox984]

The more my trauma comes to the surface, the more pain I feel and I realize how overwhelming it has been to hold it all inside for my while life. Sometimes the thing that makes me feel better is imagining I'm on a beach alone just wailing. I imagine that I just scream and scream until I don't feel so heavy anymore. I guess I like the idea of the ocean because it's so vast and it could swallow all of my pain and despair in an instant, and still be there to take more. I write a lot and that helps, but I physically feel like all of this hurt and heaviness needs somewhere to go.

 

[osiris]

You’re not alone - I make the trip to the ocean whenever I can for this reason and have literally stood there and wailed at times.
I think a lot of people find the ocean a healing place to be.

 

[OM_™]

Almost 70 years old and I still listen to Linkin Park's Given Up cranked up high when I'm alone. It's a warning song for me because Chester Bennington ended up taking his own life. I remember watching him sing the song 'live' and thinking 'Holy Shit, this guy screams exactly how I feel. I used to go to the beach and contemplate going in to swallow my pain but Chester's death reminds me that I don't really want to die. Screaming is a great alternative therapy.

 

[Just My Luck]

I can completely relate to how you feel! Years ago I worked with a holistic healer for my trauma and she told me about this 'screaming technique' that many have used, dating back thousands of years. It may sound 'crazy' to some but for those of us suffering from trauma, most of us will try anything safe to help us. She said to either walk or run until you're ready to stop and/or you're physically exhausted. Once you stop, dig a hole with your hands in the soil, sand, grass, the ground, etc, and scream in the hole that you just dug as loud as you can and for as long as you want. Once you feel that you 'let go' of whatever emotion, memory, feeling, etc, cover the hole that you dug and walk or run back to where you started. There is no right or wrong way to do this. Basically the point is to use that trauma pain and heaviness physically to get to your destination, when you dig your hole and scream and then cover it up with the dirt, you're 'leaving' those feelings, emotions, that heaviness, etc, there in that whole, thus releasing it from your mind and body as it no longer belongs to you. Nature and the Earth will use that energy for what it needs and on you walk or run back, you should feel lighter or better or something more positive than when you started. I know it may sound 'weird' but personally I've done it and it really helped me. I've done it many times. It may be for the same feelings or for something new, but it's a safe and holistic tool that we can put in our toolbox. Hopes this helps a bit, even if it made someone laugh because it's so 'out of the box', anything to feel better, even if it's just for a moment.

 

[Dark.Green.Feathers]

Sometimes, and sometimes I do it. Not too loud but it’s something.

 

[RVA21]

Yep, got to let all that trapped trauma out, somehow.

 

[OM_™]

I imagine that I just scream and scream until I don't feel so heavy anymore.

Just remembered that when I was 18-20 years of age that a friend lent me a copy of The Primal Scream. Any insights from anyone that has done Primal Therapy would be appreciated?