I Need Some Support Right Now

[Hope4Now]

I am having a very difficult time right now. Stuck. Really sad. Very lonely. Abandoned. Trying to stay present and just feel these feelings...trying not to disappear. It is really hard to do this all by myself. Probably my young parts feeling this, but knowing that doesn't help much. There is nobody around to be here for me. I've tried to contact several people just to connect with someone but nobody is around.

So I'm reaching out here on the forum. This is weirdly uncomfortable for me to do, but I know I need to take my own advice that I offer to others and ask for support.

 

[macbeth]

Well done for reaching out @Hope4Now . Sometimes that is one of the toughest things to do. I am on and of the forum today but if you would like to private message me if you feel up to it then I will try and help. I am sure many other members here will do that too. Gentle :hug:s.

 

[In Exile]

Hi! I'm here today, I'll be on and off as well. If you want to PM me, I can offer any help I can give.

I live a pretty isolated life as well, and moving to Taiwan where I don't speak the language or have any friends can be rough at times.

 

[Ti Vu]

Count me in. I'm here on-and-off as well, but if you want to talk or need someone to listen, PM me. We're here for you:) and we'll pull through together:)

 

[billie]

Thinking of you. Hope you are safe.

 

[Seasounds]

Hi, sorry for your current struggles. Do you have any things you do, to help you?

 

[The Albatross]

You have voiced a truth, some times we need and no one is available. That is why self reliance and management tools are necessary. What are you not doing for yourself? Support now is good, but what are you cultivating habitually for next time?

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

You are not alone. I am glad you reached out. I recently went through that alone, abandoned feeling, too. Luckily this time it only lasted a couple of days. Do you have any activities that you enjoy that you can do as a way to distract from the loneliness?

 

[franciemarnie]

(((((Dear Hope4Now)))))

Hang on. This will pass. I know it is terribly hard now. One foot in front of the other is our the only feasible option sometimes. Perhaps some of that beautiful poetry you post could bring light to pierce the darkness.

You are not alone.

 

[ghotiff]

I find eating really helps me with grounding. Maybe this suggestion will help you too?

 

[Hope4Now]

Thank you all for responding. I don't have a lot of words right now...my really young parts are pretty active. I can't private message. That feels frightening to me right now.

I am safe, externally. Nothing self-harming except on the inside.

It's middle of night where I am. I did sleep for a few hours. Am feeling a bit haunted by the movie I took my daughter to see, Maleficent.

@The Albatross what you say is true. I don't have powerful enough strategies to manage once my system gets past a certain level of intensity. I'm in that danger zone but haven't crossed over.

I get to this point when I am trying to keep my life somewhat together but haven't the inner resources to do it properly, so spiral into overwhelm.

 

[Sammyiam]

Hi Hope4Now,
Anytime you want to talk and when you feel up to pm just message me, I'm on and off chat so if you see me on chat come on and have a chat. Just remember that we are all here to help and have been there, just know we are all with
you.

Take care