I Need To Vent! Am I Wrong?

[lostforgottensoul]

Ahhhh, I understand now. You mean while you are visualizing! lol. Silly me. Harder or not, start small.... do what you need to do - tv on or off - whatever you need.

lol, its on cuz in the above post you sorta said that, at least the way i took it anyway, if the tv is on (noise) then maybe i could try to vizualize the tv in the room and go there after i vizualize the room.

I think if i try to think of like a "Better Homes and Garden" magazine, try to visualize the most beautiful room, and try to color the wall & put furniture in it, then it would help me to do it cuz im an artist and i also have done interior decorating and you have to vizualize a room (scaled down on paper but we dont have to go that far)
..thats the only way that i think i can make the imaginary room, consciencely anyway.

And i know you said:

It's a process that serves many processes. It allows you to see the difference between peace and drama...takes away the reality of your situation....allows you to attach to looking for good rather than putting out fires all the time....and helps you learn how to visualize.

Which is all good, i need all of that; especially attach to looking for good instead of putting out fires all the time, cuz thats exactly what it feels like and it would also help me sorta calm the internal storm i think cuz i think the internal storm is what causes me to act out dramatically (and probably over thinking this too) but i dont want it to become like the imaginary world i created as a kid to escape to in my head & now disassociate to when scared or to escape bad feelings. Maybe the difference will be that the world i have is to eacape but this room is created for peace and saftey?

Its an awesome idea and i can defenitly see how this will help in all of the ways you listed. Its habit to over think everything, the way my brain automatically works is like if i go in a room full of people my brain automatically starts to creat exit strategies (like a millon of bad things that could happen and how im gonna get out of it)....something i need to figure out how to stop. It has come in handy, like planning for the "what ifs" in life has kept me from being homeless...but its exhausting, for me and for the people im talking to, im sure. Im sorry :sorry: its not on purpose...and i know its not good to do...

 

[shimmerz]

Maybe the difference will be that the world i have is to escape but this room is created for peace and safety?

Yes. Exactly. It trains your brain to do things differently. Brains are like computer programs.... that get looped. Point that loop to a different and more productive line of code and life improves.

No sorry's. Everything is good Lost. It is all good. Now, go build peace! :hug::hug:

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Now, go build peace!

:) Thank you for all the help! :hug:

 

[shimmerz]

Of course!