I Saw My Rapist In A My Dream

[Deleted member 37868]

It was a vivid dream, I swear I was back in Germany. I got off a plane with my family, and in the taxi I realized I didn't have my luggage. I arrived at my aunts house, her son is the one. I walk in and everyone's there, I'm terrified they're all staring at me and talking to each other, saying things like don't bring it up, don't say anything. There's a girl with me, I don't have children,so weird. She has dark hair like I did, and I'm holding her hand and I feel like I need to protect her. I run out of the house to go look for my bags, it's all so vivid it's my childhood neighbourhood of my summers in Europe. I find it, no one would help me look for it. I go back and run upstairs and hug the girl, I stay awake all night doing so because I need to protect her. All the people who could have helped me that night were there, all the betrayal, and worst of all Him

 

[hodge]

Maybe the little girl in your dream was the younger you?

:hug: if that's okay.

 

[Deleted member 37868]

Awe, thanks so much for commenting. That's what I thought too. It's more than that, I haven't gone back, at first my fam didn't let me, so I've never really had to face my past. I wasn't allowed to go to my grandpas funeral even, it's all so unfinished. And I'm still being punished for something I didn't do .