Hello, again, Dot Warner,
That makes a lot of sense, the diagnosis of "dissociative amnesia".
Ah yes, the Freudian school-- very European :) When I first got sick and was not getting in guidance on how to cope with PTSD, I was was reading some Freud and some Carl Gustav Jung, some helpful insights, for sure, but what was lacking for me was learning about the practical, hands-on things I can be doing to cope with the symptoms that keep dragging me down and keeping disabled.
There's probably some good things even the Freudians can help out with. I've felt that I've needed some access to some psychotherapy, but it's really hard to get here. But I'm plugging away at it anyway.
I agree the meditation is challenging. What I struggle with is that my "routines" are routinely disrupted by my symptoms, while I know I'd benefit more if I had a daily practice, it's a motivation issue too for me, it's just starting a new habit and sticking with it, till its easier once it's established as a routine ("change theorists", say once a routine has been practiced daily for 21 consecutive days, then it does establish itself as habit, so there is less anxiety about getting it done).
The other thing that's really hard to do is to practice outside of a meditation group, to do it on one's own without being able to pop in on a meditation group like once a week or something. I had really really good guidance by my meditation teacher, through an 8 week workshop I did, once weekly.
Yeah, I'm going to stay positive anyway, and just persevere, what else can I do but keep trying, see if I can get there.
It's a pleasure meeting you. I think your experience is pretty trippy-- a very long dissociative amnesia.
I wonder if your therapist would be open to looking at some of the information that is out there on PTSD and Dissociative Disorders. Having other brain functions affected by dissociation is not unusual at all. There's an interesting article on the web called, "The Internal Family Systems Model"-- your therapist should check it out. I don't have "dissociative identities" but I have some fragmentation going on with my brain, and that article helped me to understand that better.
That makes a lot of sense, the diagnosis of "dissociative amnesia".
Ah yes, the Freudian school-- very European :) When I first got sick and was not getting in guidance on how to cope with PTSD, I was was reading some Freud and some Carl Gustav Jung, some helpful insights, for sure, but what was lacking for me was learning about the practical, hands-on things I can be doing to cope with the symptoms that keep dragging me down and keeping disabled.
There's probably some good things even the Freudians can help out with. I've felt that I've needed some access to some psychotherapy, but it's really hard to get here. But I'm plugging away at it anyway.
I agree the meditation is challenging. What I struggle with is that my "routines" are routinely disrupted by my symptoms, while I know I'd benefit more if I had a daily practice, it's a motivation issue too for me, it's just starting a new habit and sticking with it, till its easier once it's established as a routine ("change theorists", say once a routine has been practiced daily for 21 consecutive days, then it does establish itself as habit, so there is less anxiety about getting it done).
The other thing that's really hard to do is to practice outside of a meditation group, to do it on one's own without being able to pop in on a meditation group like once a week or something. I had really really good guidance by my meditation teacher, through an 8 week workshop I did, once weekly.
Yeah, I'm going to stay positive anyway, and just persevere, what else can I do but keep trying, see if I can get there.
It's a pleasure meeting you. I think your experience is pretty trippy-- a very long dissociative amnesia.
I wonder if your therapist would be open to looking at some of the information that is out there on PTSD and Dissociative Disorders. Having other brain functions affected by dissociation is not unusual at all. There's an interesting article on the web called, "The Internal Family Systems Model"-- your therapist should check it out. I don't have "dissociative identities" but I have some fragmentation going on with my brain, and that article helped me to understand that better.
