I Wanna Be Sedated

[Jnean]

Tonight I want to take more medication than prescribed, sedatives, to forget. Sometimes I just need to break.

 

[Ronin]

Hey Jnean,
I understand that feeling, though - that kind of relief, if going well, would still have two disadvantages minimum: that oblivion would be short lasting and not really solving any of the underlying issues that make it hard to deal now, the other one being physical sickness and feeling more like crap after you get through it.

And there's a risk of not getting through it. Not really your goal, it's some different place altogether.

So, what can help you feel less flooded, other than pills? What makes you feel right now is a good time, and past creep into it less?

 

[Jnean]

Flooded is a good word to use, things in my mind that I want to forget but you said some good things to remind me of what ends up resulting from it. Feeling less flooded now, using meditation, breathing techniques and grounding myself using all my senses. Trying to forget triggers because I really need a good night sleep. Sometimes I feel afraid to go to sleep. Bedtime is the worst for me. But thank you. I'm grounding myself. My pets are wonderful to snuggle too.