I Was A Child He Was An Older Man

[13 and 65]

When I was 13 years of age, I was raped by the next door neighbor while watching his 3 year old grandaughter. I was told I needed to know these things in order for the boys to love me. He, in fact, told me that he loved me all of the times I was with him. After several months of that he then proceeded in bringing around his "friends" to have a go at this 13 year old girl. The meetings would either take place in his home, right next door to my parents, or at a "no tell motel". I would be given $20 for each client to buy something for myself.

 

[13 and 65]

I am now 51 years of age and have been diagnosed with severe major depression and anxiety for the past 10. I am currently entered in a Crisis Recovery Center because of PTSD

 

[seedling]

13 and 65, welcome to the forum. Glad to hear you are getting some help and hope you can leave behind some of the fall-out of what happened to you.
You are not alone here, there are many others to share with and many ways to learn about trauma like you've been through.

All the best.

 

[cherryblossom]

Hi 13 and 65

Welcome to the forum :)

Well done for beginning to write about your experiences. Many here will be able to support you on your journey through PTSD. We also have a sister forum that I run - Survive Sexual Abuse - the link to this forum is at the bottom of my post. You will be very welcome there too, if you feel it would help

Regards
Cherryblossom

 

[BloomInWinter]

(((((((13&65)))))))

Welcome to the forum.

I am so sorry for all you have endured.

You are brave, strong, and precious. May you someday see this in yourself...it comes through clearly to us here.

May you find safety, comfort, healing, and support here and in real life.

I honor the survivor in you facing these painful memories.

 

[AngelaMarie]

(((Hug)))
Welcome to the forum! I wish you healing and courage. The forum is a good place to get support. You will find many people who will understand.

 

[Ruth]

Welcome to the Forum!

 

[13 and 65]

Thank you to everyone for responding, this helps. I have not been able to really talk to a professional as of yet. I am on a 48 hour watch at this facility. I have my first therapy session tomorrow morning. I cannot think, listen much less talk about this incident. My family, mother, father, etc., never has known any of this. My husband found out about 10 years ago and my best friend this past year. I am at a crisis point where this in interrupting my life as well as all around me.

 

[AngelaMarie]

I am glad you have someone with you to make sure you are okay. Just try and breath and take it moment by moment. I am very glad you found the forum and a place to get support.

 

[a3a2]

I am so sorry. What a horrible thing for a child to experience! I am glad you are safe, though I can imagine it feels very frightening. I wish you well on your journey toward healing, and I will be watching for you.

 

[Misera1013]

(((hugs))) I'm sorry that you went through this. I'm trying to find help for the things I went through. Please know there are so many people here to listen and help.

 

[13 and 65]

I am already blessed in having friends like you guys, thank you