I will be ok

[Lionheart]

Sorry, I am just now seeing this thread...

My T taught me to do anything positive besides self-harm. I then made a list of things I could do instead and used it as a guide for new and different behavior. It took a few tries but eventually it worked for me. Have you tried this approach to self-harm? Maybe it could help.

I know what it feels like to not want to live anymore; there was a time in my life when I would pray to die. However the truth is I just wanted the pain to stop and I really wanted to live, but without the pain. When I allowed myself to feel the pain it began to dissipate and before I knew it the negative feelings had passed.

I am sorry that you are feeling low. I don't know what is going to help, but I throw this all out there with the hopes that it helps you to feel better. I love you my friend, you are not worthless, and I hope you are around for a long, long time to come.

Big warm Lion Hugs,
Lion

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

So, I have slapped the crap outta my face almost every day for a week. Trying to stay calm as much as possible...but...
Not good. I have an appointment next Friday with a new T. That's a good thing...

 

[Deanna]

So, I have slapped the crap outta my face almost every day for a week. Trying to stay calm as much as possible...but...
Not good. I have an appointment next Friday with a new T. That's a good thing...

I sincerely hope this new T helps u, sweetie. You are valuable. You are needed. Thank- you for being here on the boards.

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

Thank you @Deanna's Gap for your kind words.

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

(((My Lion)))??
Thank you for your love and support, and your suggestions on making a list of what to do. Last week I was able to walk off some anxiety but am pretty stuck in hopeless right now.

But I know from past experience that it will get better at some point. It's not a permanent state of mind.

Thank you for your love and hugs!!!?????

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

My mind started to think more rationally yesterday afternoon. I was able to make myself go out for a walk out in nature. It helped lighten the heaviness of my heart. I have been able to "dissect" why I spiraled out of control and that is helping. I feel like I'm more in control of my feelings, and smiled yesterday for the first time in days.

The triggers that got the whole s*** storm started have decreased in strength and numbers. THAT'S what I was waiting for. Experience has taught me that time eventually turns things around.