Same for me... There are days (like today...) where I am scared of going to sleep because I fear I'll have to live another vivid nightmare. I wake up upset with cold sweat, a feeling of dread, terror. Sometimes, I wake up with bruises because I fought and moved too much. Sometimes, I wake up breathless... In my nightmares, I always run to escape a danger or fight to survive a life-threatening situation. The dreams are always different, but the horror that shakes me is always there. After I wake up, I feel exhausted, hurt, sad and even hopeless.
I think I had 2 good dreams I can remember in more than 10 years. Always after a massage made by someone caring that I trust.