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If You Could Do One Crazy Thing Today What Would It Be ?

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Put up a big sign by the road that says "everything free" and leave it there until all my stuff is gone. Then pack the motorcycle with the necessaries that are left and "disappear" with my husband.

(We are doing this in a non-crazy way by going away every weekend we can camping and hiking, but still; to really GO and BE GONE)
 
If money and a cr@ppy car wasn't stopping me either? I would drive to the mountains, rent a cabin and paint a 4 wall mural on the inside of god knows what, something surreal and meditative, and then meditate naked on a tree stump or something. I don't even know. Lol
 
Oh, oh, oh! I have a list!

- Plastic Surgery
- Torch my house or sell it, instead of having it be foreclosed on (Mmmm.... The torching may be PTSD symptoms acting up. Not sure, however, my judgement is crap at the moment. It strikes me as a bit extreme, but also highly cathartic. And it's my damn house. Ish. Meh. The land alone would pay off the mortgage. The bank doesn't need the house. Really, a cratering charge underneath it would do it good. Or me good. I think. Gah. Effing PTSD tail chasing. Lol. So at least I'd know! Sold or a smoking hole in the ground, it would be better than gone because it's too much stress to deal with.).
- Fetch all my stuff out of said house, before it's foreclosed on/ sold/ or burned to the ground. Can't even drive by it at the moment. Grrrr.
- Call up a friend & talk for hours
- Fetch home a friend and not talk for hours :D
- Go to the gym
- Sleep with my weapons in reach again
- Sleep in a real bed. With real sleep. For neither 2 hours nor 20 but like, an allotted time. And then wake up. It would be outstanding.
- Go to the dentist
- Quit smoking. Again.
- Go to a friend's grave.
 
@FridayJones

Probably is PTSD arching up, wanting to burn the house. I like the idea of burning my sister's house. I agree totally with the land value thing. The bank doesn't need the house.

But they would charge you and get all legal on your ass and carry on about it. You know, put you in jail 'n all that.

You've got a friend? Wow. Good on you. I don't.

Nah, don't go to the gym. It's plastic and full of carpet fumes and wankers. And you've gotta wear lycra. Who doesn't have enough to piss them off without trying to get that sh#t on.?

Go outside and deadlift some logs in the forest or a park....at night...or sneak in during the day when no other cars are around...and make sure you take your mace or flyspray can to squirt attackers in the eyes with.

Tell the dentist you'll take hold of his nutsack throughout the whole procedure so you know he will be careful not to hurt you. Then reassure him you have had a valium just before arrival.

Going to your friend's grave is a great idea. Lay down on it, or sit next to it and talk to them.

I do support the plastic surgery. Had some myself, but too reactive to pain now. I read how Plastic surgeons in Thailand happily hook their patients up to morphine for 2 days and then keep them on constant Endone so you can have your face lifted, your boobs done and some lipo and not suffer any pain at all. Our docs here are too scared of addiction and prefer to let their PS patients suffer like hell and pay twice as much.
 
@FridayJones and @Flossy,

I really needed a laugh tonight as I feel like shite with everything that has gone on here the last few weeks. I sat down to read the new posts and this thread of mine that I didn't remember even writing came up. I read through the posts and got to your two. I couldn't stop the grin on my face when reading Friday's then I came across yours Flossy and I just thought will that has just made my grin twice as big.
Thank you both for making me smile again.
 
Ride on a marry-go-round and grab the ring.
Leave every light on in the house 24/7 and not have to pay the electric bill.
Get a plane ticket and somehow get to the airport (no public transit to any airport near here is available), then drop in unexpectedly on my relatives and visit with them for a month. (They call me on the phone but never offer to pay my plane tickets or invite me, and I don't know why).
 
So this popped up in my feed because ... I guess someone 'liked' it?

Happily accept and give hugs- especially to/from my kids.
Talk to people I don't know; form meaningful relationships.
Finish thesis paper (yeah I know... but it's a concentration thing)
Walk into court confidently and demand justice.
Stop being afraid.
Actually, I guess none of those are actually all that crazy....just things I would want to do.

What a difference a year makes...

I finished the thesis. I'm not traveling to graduation but I finished.
I walked into court. Not confidentially but I walked in and I got my Order of Protection for two years.
I can sometimes give hugs and accept hugs from my kids.
I've got Char and that's helped with the rest. Though I have't really been able to form meaningful relationships outside of work.
Stop being afraid? Getting there...
So... progress...
 
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