Ifs and how to kill the exile...

[shimmerz]

@Hope4Now is really good with IFS stuff. Me? Not so much. However....

I know exactly the terror that you are speaking about. In my own special way. I had a part that literally would run out into the freezing cold and drop in ditches. Or would lock herself into broiling hot cars in the middle of summer. I still can't figure out why she knew what season it was. Always ditches in the cold and cars in the summer. Anyway..... I had friends go searching for me in the middle of the night, another friend pulling me out of the car swearing and cursing (he was scared and that isn't normally his MO) and throwing me into a cold shower to cool me down. It was an impossible situation. She was afraid of houses. She wanted to die before someone killed her.

And that is the thing right? This is all fear based stuff. This part is most likely terrified still of being killed. And rightly so if that is your intention. Forget what happened to her in the past.

Is there something in particular that you are terrified of her doing to you? Is there a particular reaction or set of reactions that you are expecting?

Also, do you know what happened to her? Was it is single incident or did a bunch of traumas happen?

 

[Freida]

@EveHarrington Nope - we haven't been able to find one that isn't a lock down -- and I can't be in a place that locks me in. Way to big of a trigger

 

[Freida]

Is there something in particular that you are terrified of her doing to you? Is there a particular reaction or set of reactions that you are expecting?

the biggest fear is I don't know how I will react if I get all that fear back. Even just brief flashes in EMDR are enough to make me bolt. It took every ounce of control I had not to bail out the door yesterday when she popped up. I hate being afraid because I don't know how to handle it. Do I run? fight? freeze

Also, do you know what happened to her? Was it is single incident or did a bunch of traumas happen?

Yep - one long multiple trauma event then a couple smaller ones -- all in about 2 years. People kept trying to kill me

 

[+littlebird]

Well, new jobs.....

Child parts in agony may have a new job of having fun and being carefree.[/Q...

I don't have parts, but I wish I could like this 1000 times!