Sufferer I'm 45 And Was Diagnosed 12 Years Ago.

[therapybankrupt]

Welcome WillyKat. I never thought about it that we were a tribe. Great analogy!;)

 

[Jules22]

Thank you.

Everything you've written, makes me feel less alone. I'm going through a withdrawal phase, in this episode. I so desperately want to express myself here and explain things, that I believe only people here can relate to and maybe help me cope. But I can barely type. My laptop broke and sitting up to type is so hard.

I've managed to keep myself medicated so that I've just been hiding in my bed and sleeping. I'm not always like this. It's just two incidents from my past have somehow been opened in a place that I kept hidden in my head, one for 30 years. Don't give up on me. I hope you understand. I need this group. I just have to be able to communicate.

Right now, I feel like I've been punched in the stomach. Klonopin is the only thing that helps. I am no longer wanting therapy. Too long with same person. She is wonderful to me an nice, but my issues have never been addressed and until they are, I will always be like this.

OK. that is it. Love love love you all of you fighting this cruel fight. xoxoxoxoxooxox

 

[ms spock]

Keep on typing as much as you can Jules.

 

[Lucycat]

Hi Jules

Welcome to the forum.
You say you were diagnosed 12 years ago. You are having a crisis now. I understand that, but I would love to know how you have been over the intervening years. Has it been the ongoing rollercoaster all that time, or have you had a long period of being completely well?

I have now been diagnosed for 3 years. So far I have managed 6 months between crises, but would love to know if the duration of 'wellness' gets better as time goes on.

Regards
Lucy x

 

[WillyKat]

It sounds as if you are saying you repressed some memory for many, many years. Same here. I was molested / raped at age 5 and terrorized for 3 years. The memories didn't come back until I was 21.

I'm telling you this so that you know you're not alone.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome to the forum. :)