I'm hopeless

[Punky143]

I can validate why I feel the way I do. It doesn't help though. Its as if it only pisses me off further. But I can't do this any longer. Each day the loneliness gets even loneliar, the voice gets more soft, the marks increase over the body and I know its the borderline within but I feel rejected by my T. A part let her read from the journal and since then my T has been going over boundaries and when the parts are allowed at session. I could write a book about who I apparently am but who cares. I have distorted thinking, I have parts interpreting things, I have some parts that hold body pain, I feel rejected by both my parents, I have no real friends but one but still shield info, my marriage is suffocating and a daily struggle, my kid thinks less of me, I isolate as much as possible, I'm afraid of a lot, and over and over I hear I'm the only one who can do the work. I've failed too many times. I wonder what it'd take for someone in the daily life to listen to me, not be scared or put off by me, and doesn't leave.

 

[ladee]

Well Punky, we can't be there in your personal life, but we are here, and here for you... to just talk and share, not get any feedback if you don't want it... just say so... I'm listening... I know what it feels like to not be heard in real life... but I am heard here..... just letting you know you are not alone.... not here anyway.... gentle hugs if you accept..

 

[Punky143]

Thank you, I appreciate it. I feel rotten inside and out. Take care

 

[DandylionWishes]

I feel you - if it were possible, I'd ask for a paddle to help move this boat we're both in.
Hang in there with me & take care.
~ Namaste