In A Bad Spot. Trying To Pull Myself Out.

[jesse]

I understand how you feel. You are not alone. There is nothing wrong with you JMH. I hope it brings some comfort to read through the support on this forum and that many sufferers have similar experiences. Thank God for your dog what unconditional love she is giving you right now. She knows you and loves you. A Native American friend of mine told me it is part of their culture that when someone has this affect on us to visualize everytime you pee that you are voiding that negative energy. Think of that asshole Doc and you are getting it out of your life. Sounds kind of weird but has helped me at times. Yelling f- you (insert name) as loud as I can when alone for a few minutes has helped too. It feels a little awkward at first especially when so emotionally drained but maybe try it? (((((Hugs))))). We love you on here JMH.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I feel for you so much. You are an incredible human being in my opinion and very wise and I am sorry that you are struggling so from a toxic doctor shaming you. I have learned that when this happens to me that I have a toxic hangover for the aftermath of the experience.

I am glad that you are not going back for from that doctor.

Just take really good care of yourself and I believe that you are so worth fighting for. I am sorry about the depression and the SI you are experiencing. Very toxic doctor.

Hang on and just keep reaching out for support which I think that you are incredibly brave to do so.:hug:

 

[SoSadGuilty]

@Justmehere I can only offer you good wishes and good thoughts. :hug:

 

[Zanshin]

Your dog is a great therapist - I'm glad for the puppy snuggles for you yesterday, they help.

Depression lies, but it's a bully and doesn't like it when we talk back. If you wouldn't speak to someone else in that way, don't let depression talk to you that way. You've valuable, you're worthwhile, and anything it's telling you is bunk. Flashbacks are so, so difficult, but you made it through when it happened the first time, so you can survive the flashback and triumph, too.

Be gentle to yourself. Let people help you who are there to help - us with words, thoughts, and candle, and your therapist as well.

 

[GrayOwl]

I don't think I could add any wisdom to so much that has already been said....
What incredible support for such an incredible supportive person....
I hope you get back in the saddle soon and the black clouds pass!

I would listen closely to the dog....such wonderful therapists they are -
you can see the hugs in their eyes and feel them in their touch.

Depression does lie. No doubt about it. Don't listen to it.
Sometimes it's all about just taking life a few small minutes or a few small "bites" at a time.
Stick with your supports and comforts that do work. I hope they're close.

Every time I read about politics I have to go eat ice cream with chocolate syrup.
The way this year's going I think I'm going to have to buy a bigger freezer....
Sending a gentle ":hug:" and a prayer. Feel better soon! (I'd send ice cream if I could.....)
Do you have anything special you can do today or tomorrow?? You deserve some positives....:joyful::joyful::tup:

 

[Justmehere]

Today is really really hard, the encouragement is so deeply appreciated - I can't even explain.

I'm overwhelmed and angry and lost. My anger is helping me stay until the battle but I'm tired and I just yelled at my mother. What happened was awful but not grounds to yell.

 

[SoSadGuilty]

Today is really really hard, the encouragement is so deeply appreciated - I can't even explain.

I'...

I've nothing more useful to offer other than my sympathy and :hug:s

 

[jesse]

I hope you are feeling a little better JMH. ((((Hugs)))))

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Being aware is half of the solution I think. You will be able to get centered and grounded again. You are a good person and this shall pass.:hug:

 

[Justmehere]

I keep crying today. I broke down in tears at the orthopedist, and thankfully the doctor was understanding (it was not a matter worth tears). I have cried at least 4 times today since. I want to crawl in bed and sleep and shut everything out. I'm trying to push through and stick out my commitments but I keep crying. I hate crying. I keep wondering what is wrong with me.... :(

 

[SoSadGuilty]

I keep crying today. I broke down in tears at the orthopedist, and thankfully the doctor was underst...

Oh god you poor thing @Justmehere you are really in a bad spot aren't you. I'm so sorry you're feeling like this, it is totally crap I know. I just want to stay in bed and never get up.

 

[Justmehere]

sending you a big teddy bear :hug: @SoSadGuilty, if you accept it.