Intense anger and severe depression

[Snowflake]

This week I wrote about my anger and shared it with my therapist. When will the severe depression end?

It is NOT fair that I was sexually abused!!! It’s not fair I am suffering because of what was done to me!!!! It’s not fair that I’m so alone and have no support!!!!! It’s not fair I think of suicide daily because of what they did to me!!!! It’s not fair -

How do I move past this anger and severe depression?

 

[ladee]

I so wish I had an absolute answer for you. We would all love to have a time table. It would help so much to know when so much of this stops...but we don't have answers for our selves either...

I just know for me, and others I read here,it takes time and hard work... and it sucks and no ,it's not fair.... We don't know why we were handed this pile of crap to deal with... but you are not alone, tho you may feel that you are... If you come here often, and read around the threads, you will see that so many of us feel just like you do... but they also share what they are doing to get down the road with it...

I'm sorry you are having to be here... I don't wish this on my worst enemy.... but we do help each other take one more baby step... and are proud of each other for the truly hard work..... I'm glad you shared... my answer did not answer anything for you, except to let you know, you are not alone.

 

[Snowflake]

I so wish I had an absolute answer for you. We would all love to have a time table. It would help so much...

Thank you @ladee

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Welcome to the forums.

How long have you been in therapy?
What methods, is it a trauma specialist, those things help

 

[Snowflake]

Welcome to the forums.

How long have you been in therapy?
What methods, is it a trauma specialist, tho...

I’ve been in therapy with a trauma psychologist for 3 years. Lots of EMDR but this past week I’ve lost it-a memory....I don’t know. Now I’m angry and severely depressed. I see my therapist 2x a week.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Processing memories as they come is the worst part, up till now I've had one severe remembering period during intense therapy, and am having another one right now.

Good thing is, after all tbe crap you go through, it gets a bit easier. :Hug:

 

[Deleted member 541]

https://www.myptsd.com/threads/the-iceberg-of-emotions.13731/

This may help you to figure out exactly what’s bothering you....

 

[Phantom Shadow]

I have PTSD yes a total different form. But I have the small problems as you. One thing that would help is to know for a fact that the one's that did the deed are behind bars or had to answer for it. Also one thing that helped me is to journal it all out. I just let my mind run free and for the most part my hand keeps up. But it really does not matter to me that I miss some words and misspell words and even jump all over the place as my mind does. No one is allowed to read it and I mean no one. I allowed my therapist when I first started doing on my own. But it was not the same as I slowed done so I could make it perfect (yes one of my bad traits). So I do it for me only. I don't know how it helps but it seems to work at times an other times not. Try it if it does work for you then it ain't hurt nothing. No never hurts anyone expect the one that has not tried.

 

[Snowflake]

I have PTSD yes a total different form. But I have the small problems as you. One thing that w...

Thank you-

 

[Rebecca Lucy]

Hi - I am struggling with the same thing. I feel really angry and depressed. not gotten out of bed since Sunday - and its' Saturday today. had really bad thoughts of suicide. I hate my family they make me feel disgusting. Am sick of being here in this world.

 

[Mach123]

Nope it's not fair. I'm sorry you are suffering, everyone who said so. I'm not as angry or depressed. It's been a really long hard road, a lifetime actually. I'm still getting to know who I am, what I am, and where I fit. I was angry about what happened but it was a relief to understand that was why everything was so messed up. I have people helping me. I write a lot here and it's helped. It's hard and it's lonely. I wish it were easier.