...Where to begin?
I've spent the last 20 years working through major childhood trama...sexual abuse, belittling, physical abuse, condemnation of self and others. One of the biggest challenges is walking this world as an empath who has a very thin skin, absorbing the energy of others, and getting overwhelmed with the world in general.
I earned an MA and a doctorate in psychology to try and make sense of my challenges and with a hope that I could help others. My life as I had constructed it, with my very large brain, began to crumble six years ago. Panic set in and a divorce soon followed.
The moving into a more authentic self has been painful and liberating. Recently a new cycle of healing has presented itself. The universe has placed me among many artists, shamans, and energy healers. Entering into this world, I am left with the realization that my brain, exclusively, is not going to heal the deep wounds.
For a woman who has lived life relying on her brain to deal with trauma, bodywork scares the hell out of me. I had my first session with a Rubenstein energy therapist yesterday and I have been out of sorts and the internal system is terrified. My heart is aching and it feels like my guts are hanging out. My brain can't hijack the process.
For those who have had bodywork to address trauma, my question...will I feel like a fish that has been filleted forever? My brain wants me to stop the energy work,yet I know in my body that this work is critical to healing. I get scared feeling so out of control...
Thank you for listening. I look forward to learning more from each of you.
I've spent the last 20 years working through major childhood trama...sexual abuse, belittling, physical abuse, condemnation of self and others. One of the biggest challenges is walking this world as an empath who has a very thin skin, absorbing the energy of others, and getting overwhelmed with the world in general.
I earned an MA and a doctorate in psychology to try and make sense of my challenges and with a hope that I could help others. My life as I had constructed it, with my very large brain, began to crumble six years ago. Panic set in and a divorce soon followed.
The moving into a more authentic self has been painful and liberating. Recently a new cycle of healing has presented itself. The universe has placed me among many artists, shamans, and energy healers. Entering into this world, I am left with the realization that my brain, exclusively, is not going to heal the deep wounds.
For a woman who has lived life relying on her brain to deal with trauma, bodywork scares the hell out of me. I had my first session with a Rubenstein energy therapist yesterday and I have been out of sorts and the internal system is terrified. My heart is aching and it feels like my guts are hanging out. My brain can't hijack the process.
For those who have had bodywork to address trauma, my question...will I feel like a fish that has been filleted forever? My brain wants me to stop the energy work,yet I know in my body that this work is critical to healing. I get scared feeling so out of control...
Thank you for listening. I look forward to learning more from each of you.
