Childhood Intrusive memories and how to deal with them help

[Deleted member 47099]

I'm not sure I have the words to express what I'm feeling to a therapist at this moment I am building towards it I hope but at the moment I dont have the courage for that honesty.

Take your time and when you feel ready to see a therapist, one thing you can do is just print out this thread and ask them to read it, if you want to.
You don't have to tell them the details directly.
A good trauma therapist will know you are there "for a reason" and will wait until you are ready to talk about stuff at your pace.
Trauma therapy is about helping you, so that's what the therapist will try and do.

 

[bluedoctor]

Today is a marginally better day than yesterday, I started writing down the memories I was remembering in a notebook and how i was reacting to them. The headache has turned into an ocassional dull throb and my nausea is completely gone, I have been bedridden for the past two days though I've turned my phone off because I kept on getting messages from concerned friends I just feel completely disconnected from the real world if that makes sense my friends know a very specific side of me and I just am not sure I'm ready to see them until I feel relatively normal again. I know its not good to stay in a room all day but I still feel very depleted so I'm not sure how to bounce back and return to my bubbly self especially because I feel as though I'm viewing myself from the outside.