I’m not claustrophobic at all, in point of fact still take a great deal of pleasure in wriggling through tight spaces, when I get the chance ... but being trapped? Get me the f*ck up outta here!!! I have zip zero made zilch issues with small spaces. Confinement, on the other hand, I lose my ever lovin’ mind over.
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I know the exits. (Whether a building, or city, or mountain pass). I have routes mapped with various time delays built in (if that wall comes down, if a crowd blocks that space, if weapons, if that steam vent breaks, if this road is blocked, if that river rises, etc.), I know the choke points, and weak spots... of almost everywhere I go.
When I’m doing well? It’s just background noise. The same way people note crosswalks on busy streets, or curves in the road they’re driving on. I don’t have to think about it. It just ticks along, creating a mental map as I go. And I adapt easily to changing circumstance.
When I’m doin badly? It’s exhausting. And infuriating. And demoralizing. And often impossible (even trying to do it consciously, I can’t focus because I’m too tunnel visioned / worked up (good for a close quarter fight, bad for walking through a building with multiple points of ingress/egress :confused: ). There are a lot of times I simply flat out refuse to enter a space that is going to do my head in. Much like a balking horse at a jump. Nope. Not happening. I’m not going to deal with THAT. No.