I saw a thread by @Sophy (in lockdown) about her childhood trauma leaving her feeling like a freak. I suppose regardless of what I work on, I still feel that way, and a burden. Sometimes it's confirmed, sometimes not (yet), sometimes it's incidental. I guess anything that puts distance between, esp if I feel it's confirmed, seems a good idea, or even something I should be required to do. I say 'should be' because the onus seems to be mine.