Soooo familiar for me too! Doesn't it SUCK? I hate those days and am having one right now, a "lite" version of your meltdown. Mine's a really sick feeling inside for no good reason. FIRST: you are not responsible for these events. At all. Not even a little bit. SECOND: humor, can you find some lighter side to the sitch? You can't lighten up until you lighten up. THIRD: chocolate or equivalent, you have suffered because of this episode, so indulge in something because you deserve it. I am really impressed by your post, and we all understand your circumstances.