It Happened. Now What?

[TwoDee2ThreeDee]

You should go to the ER. You need to make sure you're not physically hurt, and to get the services you need. You don't have to involve the police if you don't want to. That is a decision only you can make.

 

[Ghostybear73]

Would it be a bad thing to call the police? You need help and the emergency room sounds like it might be a safe place for you

 

[Ghostybear73]

And as much as I hate to say it, it may allow you the option to dissociate in the er and give yourself a little relief

 

[TwoDee2ThreeDee]

It's entirely possible it is my fault and I did something wrong.

Is that what you believe?

 

[Ghostybear73]

Its important that you try really hard to stay aware where you are. I know its hard but fight the feelings of going away. That place (if its anything like mine) may seem the best place right now, but I don't want to see you get hurt anymore than you already have

 

[Ghostybear73]

Not true, it doesn't matter your state of mind, nobody has a right to hurt you!! It is definitely not your fault, no matter where you were.

 

[mytai]

@TwoDee2ThreeDee It's easier to write then it is to talk. Talking out loud is harder, I can't see that my thoughts don't make sense.

I can't go to the ER, because I can't let someone touch me right now. Going means letting them check me out, and I can't. They will call the police whether I want them to or not.

@Ghostybear73 It would be a bad thing to call the police. The police here will no longer deal with me after the last time I attempted to file a report. The person who was able to back my report decided to protect the abuser instead and now I"m labelled as a liar. If I go to the ER and dissociate then they will admit me to psych and that makes everything worse for me.

 

[TwoDee2ThreeDee]

And by the way, it is very brave of you to call the helpline and tell them what happened

 

[mytai]

Is that what you believe?

Yes I do.

 

[Ghostybear73]

Hmmmmm......is there anyway to just leave there? I know I sound like a broken record, but you really need to go somewhere safe...and not your mind. You mind is not safe right now. I know going to the er is scary, but you need to get checked out. Can I ask why going into a psyche center would be a bad thing right now? I know that sounds silly, but please help me to understand how that would make things worse.[DOUBLEPOST=1388037883][/DOUBLEPOST]It is okay to get help for yourself

 

[mytai]

Not at this time of night. I don't have great night vision (eye surgery a year ago, halos at night), and the weather got bad here. So it's unsafe to drive home to my apartment for two reasons, well three if you include the fact that I can't really focus my mind on a task other than writing right now.

Unless the ER would be willing to immediately drug me before laying a hand on me it is not an option for me. I've been in a psyche centre twice (in high school) both times were absolutely horrible experiences, not to mention I have to be back at work on Friday. I don't do well in hospitals, even for non mental health related things. I have anxiety attacks and my PTSD is way worse in there.

 

[TwoDee2ThreeDee]

Be safe, Mytai - please keep posting so we know you're ok.