It's Only Work...

[Frogs88]

Why is it that I am taking such huge leaps in my personal life lately but I still go into a meeting at work and just can't talk, literally can not talk. I just can not express myself. I just feel so powerless against my employers. My life is going so well but then I get to work and I get depressed, I feel helpless and voiceless.

 

[TXbandit]

Do you like the work you do? It may just be that you don't like it. Maybe I am reading into it wrong. Not sure. I feel the same way when I go to work. I get really anxious and jumpy before I get there. Still not sure why...

I hope you find a way to help. I know it is hard. Hang in there Frogs

 

[KwanYingirl]

Is it the difference in power status that gets you nervous? I always hated staff meetings. It takes a savvy manager to move things along and not get bogged down by idle chitchat. Now I'm self employed and I do not miss having a boss at all.

Do you know who Will Ferrell is? He is married to the daughter of a brilliant a Radiologist who I worked with. She is an Art a Historian and got a job leading tours of an art museum. She was very shy and was struggling so her boss suggested she take acting lessons. She did and that is where she met and fell in love with Will Ferrell. My point being it might be helpful to take acting lessons. So even if you hate the topic you can act out the scene with confidence.

 

[Frogs88]

I think it's the fact that other people are in control of what is a big slice of my life. And it's also the fact that I can't seem to communicate to them what I need because they've already prejudged the situation. I need chaos, I need a busy job, I need to be run off my feet. That's what I like. When it'[s calm and quiet then the boredom sets in, the anxiety sets in. I asked for a job on ship but they described a busy situation that they think would be too stressful for me and I think would be absolute perfection but they put me in a 'nice calm position, with no pressure' instead. I honestly want to start hurting myself when I'm bored. I do not deal with boredom. But worst this position leaves me walking home at eleven at night through a really dodgy area. So I'm really unhappy.

 

[TXbandit]

Sounded about right. Can you ask for another position and tell them you are not happy and it's not working for you?

 

[Frogs88]

I tried, they don't listen.

 

[KwanYingirl]

Ack!!! I can identify with the chaos crave. The busier the better and I can't imagine ever retiring and just be home with stupid house chores. Bleecchhh. I am worried that you're walking home late. Do you have mace or pepper spray? Do you work someplace that you could transfer to a different office/job? I'm really sorry it's hard for you. Work takes so much time, it ought to be rewarding. Sounds like it's time for a change?