I've Lost My Partner Because of My PTSD

[lisajayne]

My life seems so blank at the moment. For years, I was told by my doctors I was suffing from depression. It was only 2 weeks ago when I tried to take my life for the 2nd time that I finally got the help I was looking for. At last I have found out that I wasn't going mad; I have PTSD and I was fine. Since it's sunk in, I'm scared my anger and moods will never go away. My parnter has walked away. He can't cope anymore and I don't know how to get him back in my life, as I really need him.

 

[disenchanted]

:hello:lisajayne,
First let me say welcome to the forum. I'm still a moderated member so this post won't show right away and others might come ahead, but at this moment no one has welcomed you that I can see, and I wanted you to know that must be an oversite b/c the people here are very nice and welcome everyone.

Having said that, be glad that you have your answer and you are not going mad!!! People in our lives come and go, and if you are going to focus on getting better, that loss might go on the back burner as it were, considering we PTSD-ers have much to work on, and take a lot of brain space to stay safe and calm.

I have been accused of being cold, unfriendly, self-involved, spoiled, high strung, wierd, crazy, too much trouble, an alcoholic (I can't drink at all), high maintence....the list goes on, I may reach out and try to explain to a special person, but if they don't get it, I can't be worried. Sometimes I'm lonley, and I do have a friend who accepts (with some grumbling) an occassional night out to a play, but that's my limit. I have to accept where I am as long as I am trying to get better.

I'm sorry your partner walked away from you but you are not alone here. And I know there are people in the world who have the patience for people like us. They just have to be found. I'm extra careful because I have a wonderfully unerringly beautiful skill of picking predators and losers no matter how hard I try. Much work to be done there:think:.

Welcom to the forum.

 

[Deleted member 541]

Hi & welcome to the forum......

PTSD isn't easy, and living with someone that has it, is a tough road to haul, unless the person with PTSD gets help, and really works to try and heal their issues.

Give your partner some time, and space. He may come back, or he may not, but that is inevitably his choice.

I'm sorry that you are having a rough time with all of this, but it can and does get easier with lots of work, and time. Read everything that you can on this site and others, get into therapy, work hard on healing yourself, and be gentle with yourself also......

 

[the racha]

Lisajayne: I'm glad to hear that you finally have a correct diagnosis, but also sad to hear about your partner.

You have a lot on your plate right now, and I know that this is hard to believe, but your PTSD can get better if you work at it. Have you found a therapist that has been trained or specializes in trauma?

the racha

 

[midi]

Sorry to hear you've lost your partner at such a difficult time. May you get the help you need with PTSD. There's a lot of cool people here in the forum.

 

[dust]

Hi, welcome to the forum. It is tough dealing with PTSD on your own, but you will feel the benefits once you get the help you need. I am sorry to hear about your partner, I hope that you can begin to start healing soon.

dust