Jekyl and Hyde - Lost Within Myself

[juls]

Sometimes I think I'm getting lost within myself and I don't want to be a part of the real world around me. Everything seems to set me off. I'm very focused and also very distractable. The smallest interruption may set me off and I feel out of control. I lash out at those around me and they are hurt--I don't know who I am anymore and just try to shrink within myself and make it through the day. I don't know what my reaction(s) might be, so I stay away from others as much as possible. I'm like Jekyl and Hyde. I can't explain it, but I know I'm not getting any better, and I'm tired of going in circles. It's very difficult hiding all one's inadequacies...exhausting...wish I could just be myself.

 

[ranger2_75]

juls,
I can say that I know what you are talking about. When I started to read this I was wondering who that I know was on the forum using that screen name. Kind of eary realy how simmular our(we with PTSD) simptoms are.

 

[becvan]

yeah, it almost feels like an out of body experience when you lose control. I feel like i'm watching myself completely lose it and can't do anything about it.. then i spend forever apologizing and trying to soothe some hurt feelings.. never good...

bec

 

[FlyLadyFan]

Sometimes I think I'm getting lost within myself and I don't want to be a part of the real world around me. Everything seems to set me off. I'm very focused and also very distractable. The smallest interruption may set me off and I feel out of control. I lash out at those around me and they are hurt--I don't know who I am anymore and just try to shrink within myself and make it through the day. I don't know what my reaction(s) might be, so I stay away from others as much as possible. I'm like Jekyl and Hyde. I can't explain it, but I know I'm not getting any better, and I'm tired of going in circles. It's very difficult hiding all one's inadequacies...exhausting...wish I could just be myself.

Ditto.

FLF

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[mac]

Kind of eary realy how simmular our(we with PTSD) simptoms are.

Same here.

 

[girlinabox]

Yep, I wake up feeling like this every day, terrified of other people (besides a unique few) and trying to control the screaming in my head at night. The only escape seems to be sleeping.

 

[qagolf]

A general noticed one of his soldiers behaving oddly. The soldier would pick up any piece of paper he found, frown and say: “That's not it” and put it down again. This went on for some time, until the general arranged to have the soldier psychologically tested. The psychologist concluded that the soldier was deranged, and wrote out his discharge from the army.
The soldier picked it up, smiled and said: “That's it.”

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