Just a fantasy

[419can.dance]

I am terrified to even type this.

The last thing I need is to be labeled insane.


I have a fantasy. One that ALWAYS leads to pleasure.

Death. And pleasure.


No matter where I am. Where I go there.

The tingling sensation completely takes over head to toe.

Then the release of all pure emotion. Pain. Fear.


Outside I daydream this dream.

Inside I fall into a space in between.

Fantasy. No true pain. A death I can enjoy.

Over and over again.

The end.

 

[Deleted member 33052]

Who here would judge you to be insane? ;)

I don't have any good advice for you, I'm sorry. I do hope that you are in therapy. It sounds like you are in a lot of pain.

I have no idea what your fantasy is, but considering our propensity toward suicidal ideation, the painless death aspect of it actually sounds attractive to me. It took me 55 years to figure out that life is, in fact, worth living. I hope you get there way sooner than I did. ***hug***