Only trying to relax now, I had a massive panic attack 2 pm this afternoon. I had a bad day, could be losing my job over PTSD and have to face my boss tomorrow who isn't the nicest person...And just before that see my Therapist. I am so anxious, as soon as my partner got home I broke down and couldn't breathe properly because I was hyperventilating and felt extremely worried and scared to face work and therapy on the same day. My heart was pounding & when I went for some tissues my legs felt like jelly and I got dizzy/light headed. I told my partner I think I'm going to pass out. I was sweaty and shaking and just felt so weak. My partner had to lay me down and spend 30 mins slowly calming me down, so I didn't pass out from crying and hyperventilating. I haven't eaten or slept in 48 hours, and still can't sleep tonight. Oh and bowel 'issues' are a problem.
Also, I am sore physically and have a bad tooth/jaw ache that not sure would relate it anxiety/panic attack or not.
I am relatively new to accepting I have PTSD (Or just stopped avoiding the truth) and this is the first real relapse I have had in 3 years and finally getting real help. I'm 21.
Mine are usually triggered by stress or fear. I have basically spent 9 days in my house with anxiety, among other things and only had 1 good day during this hellish time. Geez I would love a remote that paused my life when I needed.
I was a victim of on going child sexual abuse, and I just hate thinking who or what I would have been if he didn't do what he did to me. But I try to see it positively. I'm stronger than most people, and this will make me a great Mum when I have children one day etc.
Stay strong everyone!